31st december 2002
feeling: slightly nauseous and light-headed
listening to: vanessa-mae - i feel love
hurr, or not. it's 3am and i'm still sitting here. i didn't get
screencaps of dolores, because for some odd reson the print screen
option refused to give me anything but a blank screen instead of
pretty-pretty dolores. oh well. i'll either try it again some
other time or make chiko-chiko
do it tomorrow while i sleep - which i told myself i wouldn't do,
but will most likely anyway. oh well.
i got stuck watching tonari no totoro earlier. much to my
surprise, it was copleted while i wasn't looking after i had been
spying on its progress for several minutes. but you know what
they say: 'a watched kettle never boils'. so true. anyway, i
decided to take a peek to see if it actually works (the last one
we d/l'ed was extremely small and smudgy and had no sound) and
if it by some yevon's miracle actually happened to be subbed
instead of dubbed (which it thankfully was) and got stuck
watching it for several tens of minutes. i only stopped because,
one, i thought it wouldn't be cool of me to watch it alone
without chiko-chiko, and two, the subtitles were lagging slightly.
only about a second, to be exact, but enough to bother me. it
could've, of course, been my sleep-deprived mind playing tricks
on me, but somehow i doubt it. hopefully it'll work better tomor--,
i mean today, otherwise it'd be painful to watch it. especially
since my understanding of japanese doesn't extend much further
than simple thank-yous, good-mornings and the likes. so yeah,
non-lagging subtitles are much needed here, thank you very much.
now i'm just being silly, but celine dion's if that's what it takes reminds me of the
relationship between auron and braska. the devotion presented in
the song (especially in the second-to-last and the last verse)
is so complete it's cute. ^_^
tiuku is being a complete naka neko. just because i'm up and
about at this forsaken hour doesn't mean that she necessarily has
to be. especially since her "being up" involves a great deal of
surging and whiffing around the house and making as much noise
as possible for a cat her size. ¬_¬
why is that whenever you pull an all-nighter you get cold? my
fingers are like icicles and my toes are about to be turned into
ones. i think i need to go to sleep soon, before i pass out.
30th december 2002
listening to: spirited away - itsumo nando demo
spirited away 0wz, y0! ^_^ i can't think of a single
bad thing to say about the movie - it was simply fantastic. the
sheer detail on each creature was awe-inspiring. i want the
imagination of the people who came up with all the different
kami-samas. ^_^ i could definitely see a resemblance between
totoro and that one big, hairy, white kami that rode the elevator
with chihiro. heh, i even fell in love with the stinky and muddy
kami that turned out to be the river god. i felt so bad for him
when they almost wouldn't let him bathe. :[ and dude, haku looked
mad cool as a dragon! :O
as for the non-kami creatures, the "normal folk" spirits that
habited the village next to the spa were totally gorgeous.
whether it was my ringwraith-obsessed mind or something else, i
can't say, but i was totally squealing at their cuteness from the
get-go. there was just something very appealing about their
ethereal appearance and their gleaming red eyes. ^^ and of course,
one mustn't forget about the ever-so-cute makkuro kurosukes that
were present also in tonari no totoro. hurr, they were
brilliant. it was so cute how they hogged chihiro's shoes and
socks. and of course how they crowded the entrances to their
"coal holes" when that slimy thing that haku spat up ran around
the room. hee, too cute. ^_^
but my ultimate fave was without a doubt the kaonashi. at first
i thought he (i'm assuming it's a he. it looks like a he to me
o_O) was freaky, but as he just followed chihiro around and did
favours for her, i really started to like him. he looked so very
cool, as well. his mask was awesome. i was a little thrown off
when he spent time in the spa and become all huge and nasty,
but when he took the train to the one sorceress-person-thingy at
swamp bottom (i think that's what it was called, anyway) with
chihiro and became all slim again, i really fell in love with
him. he was so shy around the sorceress at first, poor thing. ^^
gotta love him having tea and cake, as well as spinning wool and
knitting. his mask looked so happy. ^^ i cried when he stayed
with her as chihiro and haku left. i'm silly, i know, but it was
such a happy moment, considering how he resented being alone.
so yeah, i definitely enjoyed this movie a lot. hopefully it's
gonna come out on dvd sooner or later.
i'm getting really frustrated at my ff10 fanfic. i never thought
writing itself would so much more difficult than just thinking
about the things you're gonna write, especially with yaoi. but
i suppose when it's a pairing you like, you want to do it right.
all in all, i'm starting to think the mugetsu fanfic i wrote for
chiko-chiko on request was
easier to do than my current fic, and that's to say a lot,
seeing as i had loads of trouble with it at times. but i'm going
to get this one done, you'll see.
now the only question is, how on earth am i going to manage to
get the pwp i promised my sis i would write, done? XD
and now, i'm going to go take some screencaps of dolores. and
after that, i'm off to bed. it's been so long since i last
pulled an all-nighter that my body probably couldn't handle it.
listening to: final fantasy 6 - shadow's theme
so, i is back from gran's. christmas was very nice and enjoyable.
i ate and slept entirely too much, but it's probably only going
to do me good in the long run. though i have to say i was all
too happy to get back home and start eating "normal" food again.
i was really starting to get sick of all the ham and the
casseroles. thankfully it's another whole year 'til next
christmas. XP but all in all, christmas at gran's was as great as
ever (excluding the thing chiko-chiko
ranted about) and i still wouldn't trade it for the world. ^_^
i know you won't get to see this, mamma, but thank you so very
much. i had a great time. :) :)
as for pressies, i got:
- disney's beauty and the beast dvd
- the felloship of the ring special extended edition dvd
- robin hobb's fool's errand
- terry pratchett's pyramids
- a sweater
- a scarf with matching mittens
- loose night t-shirt
- socks *o_O*
- a scented candle
- chocolate, chocolate, chocolate
and last, but definitely not least, i got a brilliantly kick-ass,
slightly sd'ed ceramic ringwraith that also serves as a
candlestick. handmade and painted from head to toe, i might add.
he's slightly under 20cm in height and somewhat simplified and
sd'ed (his head is rather tall and out-of-proportion in contrast
to the rest of his body, which truly makes him a three-heads-tall
chibi-wraith. ^^ plus he's completely missing a face). he's
painted completely in black and coated with descreet silver
glitter (very nice!). he's holding a small plate (also painted
black and coated with glitter) in front of him, which serves as
a base for a small candle. he looks very wicked (pun not intended,
but works) when you light the candle and it lights up his "face".
needless to say, i <3 him very dearly. i'd wager his one of the
best christmas presents (or any presents, while we're at it) i've
ever gotten. ^_^ *pokes wraithy-wraith*
very special thanks to the people who got it for me! ^_^
speaking of ringwraiths... i have a new layout, y0! just in case
you didn't notice. i just can't seem to be able to live without
them ringwraiths. ^_~
we're probably gonna go see spirited away with
chiko-chiko today. i'd
like to go see two towers again as well, but that would
require more money than i currently possess. grandma gave us
some money, but i don't think that's going to be enough for
both of the movies. XP thankfully i'm getting the next installment
of my student loan on one of the first few days of january.
that'll help enormously, since at the moment i'm totally broke.
and since two towers is such a huge movie, i have a feeling
we'll have time to see it enough times, even if we don't rush in
there right this minute. ;P but since it might not be so with
spirited away, we thought it would be best to go see it
soon, aka today. heck, it's not like we have anything better to
21st december 2002
feeling: ill in a weird way
listening to: silent hill 2 game sounds
XMAS HOLIDAY!! w00t! ^^
the traditional xmas celebration at my school was alright, if not
slightly on the sucky side. we sang a few christmas carols and
watched a play performed by the freshmen. it was cinderella,
slightly altered and modernized, and i didn't think that much
of it. some parts were okay and some even made me laugh out loud,
but mostly it was sucky. they tried to make it all cool and stuff,
but mostly they just recycled ideas that have already been used.
the only part i really enojyed was when some of the teachers
came on the stage to perform tiernapojat (sorry folks, i
don't know what that is in english). it was very amusing, imo.
people even threw real money at them at the end of the play,
even if it was all in old finnish marks and not in euros.
so now i'm on holiday 'til january 7th, which is very good
because i really do need a break from school. lately i've been
so stressed out that i've hardly been able to sleep and thus been
dead-tired all the time. i also haven't been eating that well,
all the stress stealing away my apetite. but thank waltz i now
have two whole weeks to do nothing but eat and sleep. and
seeing as we're going to be at gran's, i have a feeling that i'm
going to be doing loads of both. :)
LMAO! yes, i'm pretty sure you are going to make me explode with that. ;)
20th december 2002
listening to: final fantasy 10 - final battle
i bet mom forgot i'm even here. it's 10 minutes past 4pm, and
she still hasn't come to pick me up. d00d. O_O
feeling: somewhat hungry and melancholy
listening to: tekuu no escaflowne - story of escaflowne
i was supposed to go buy candy for xmas! :O :O
ahh well, i see no reason why we couldn't do that together with
mom once we're done with our other shoppings. *shrug*
this song is making me all teary-eyed, for some reason. o_O
listening to: naruto - ROCKS!
oops. i'm waiting for mom to get off work and sitting in the
computer lab situated downstairs from where mom works, using
their internet connection because i'm too lazy to trot back to
school. i'm such a leech. XP
now i'm only hoping that my cd player won't run out of batteries
before mom gets out. cause that would just plain suck.
writer's block, eh? join
the club. i've been trying to write several things but haven't
been able to get anything done in a long time. mugetsu drained
oh, and btw... you said
'fellowshit'! XD XD XD
d00d! 'black escaflowne' sounds friggin' awesome! O_O
i haven't mentioned that i want an ent layout, have i? well, i
do. i probably won't put one up before mid-january, though, for
a couple of reasons.
1 - i like my ringwraith layout way too much to change it so
2 - it's hard to find the kind of ent pics that would make a
good layout. i'd like the pic to have several different looking
ents in it, preferably terrorizing isengard. ;P
3 - i'm simply lazy to make layouts (due to the reason that i
can't make 'em that well).
feeling: ready to fall over
listening to: people talking
p00. our baka adp-teacher forgot to unlock the door to the
computer lab which he locked up for the duration of the xmas
church thingy this morning so people who were supposed to go to
the church wouldn't skip and hang out there. anypoo, he forgot
to unlock the stupid door and now i can't get in there! ARGH!
so now i'm forced to use the computers in the school library.
the thing is that there are no chairs here (i friggin' have to
stand in fron of the comp!), plus the table is too low and i'm
having a hard time reaching the keyboard. the position of my
hands and arms is very uncomfortable and it's starting to hurt
my wrists. also on the bad side, you're not allowed to eat here,
so i can't eat the apple i bought with me to make up for missing
the school lunch. shucks.
i have a doctor's appointment today. i'm going to talk to him
about getting a test done to see if i'm lactose-intolerant or
even allergic to milk. i've gone through the lactose test twice
already, and the milk allergy test once, and they were both
negative, which is really odd 'cause milk is still causing
trouble in my system. so i'm gonna try it one more time. if it's
still negative, i don't know what i'm gonna do. i just find it
extremely odd that my system seemingly doesn't like milk products,
but it doesn't show up on any tests. hmm...
i want to see two towers again so bad i can taste it.
chiko-chiko and i thought
about going to see it sometime between xmas and new year, since
for the first since i can remember we're spending that time in
the city and not at my gran's. but on a positive note, i'm
finally going to be able to see the new year's fireworks. i've
never had to pleasure of seeing them before, at least not that i
can remember. i love fireworks (the ones on independence day were
awesome, btw ^^) and i'm very excited about finally being able
to see 'em.
i strayed from the point i was making... while (almost) staying
on the subject of movies, we're also thinking on going to see
spirited away after xmas or new year, depending on our
financial situation. needless to say, i'm very excited about that
sigh. still some school left. i'm getting out at 1pm today
(that's when my doctor's appointment is and i can't be bothered
to go back to school anymoe after that), but that still seems so
far away. i'm also going to have to wait 'til 4pm for mom to get
off work so we can go shop for some xmas foods and stuff. then
on saturday (of all days!) i still have to come to school at
8:15am for a traditional xmas celebration thingy and to receive
my grades for the past two periods. as if i didn't know them
already (we get to know them after every period), but it's still
a compulsory thing. sigh. i'm going to have to make sissy watch cubix for me, since i'm
more than likely going to miss it. but after that, i'm home free
and won't have to go to school until on 7th january. w00t. ^^
we'll probably leave for our gran's on sunday, when inanna and drew come to set up some things on our computer
while taking the old one with 'em. so we'll probably get a lift
from them. goodness. :)
on another note, i can't wait to get to gran's again. i just spent
a week there during my autumn holiday, but there's something
fundamentally different about being there during xmas and being
there during some other holiday. i can't even imagine spending
xmas somewhere else, was absolutely horrified when mom said that
this year we might not be going 'cause gran might be too tired
for the amount of people and things to do. luckily it wasn't so,
and we're going to spend xmas there like so many times before.
so it's all good. ^_^
i just found myself being very very confused after reading maccie's entry. o_O anyways, it's perfectly
okay if my present (what the hell could it be...?) takes a little
longer to get here, seeing as i couldn't get you anything. i
whoo, this is a long and unintelligent entry and it seems that i
can't spell to save my life! >_<
19th december 2002
listening to: nothing
oh yes, two towers indeed rocked! i was expecting it to
be awesome and it didn't let me down for a moment. even the
nazgūl were there, eventhough i didn't expect them to be. you
don't get to see much of them in the book, right? it's been
a while since i last read the book, so i might confuse things.
anypoo, they totally blew my socks away! their winged beasts
were brilliant and i found my breath getting caught in my throat
every time there was a nazgūl on the screen. they're simply too
cool, i can't even find the words for it.
and the ents...oh my waltz, the ents! i adored the ents to pieces
(that's a nasty thing to say about a "tree", though ><). the
way they were animated, the way they moved and looked and talked,
and like sissy said, the
way they all looked different. and yes, there indeed was a spruce
or two in there. ^_~ and i simply fell in love with the way they
talked. entish so pretty. ^^
and again, i found myself breathless when the ents attacked
isengard. they way the ents walked with their long legs was just
too cute/awesome. and my jaw totally dropped on the floor when
they started wrecking havoc all around, squashing orcs and
throwing rocks and stuff. and the way they just digged their
roots on the ground and just stood their gorund when the water
came rushing in took my breath away. serves all of 'em orcs right,
i says. that's what you get for setting an ent on fire. bi0tch.
the ents are my heroes. ^^
on thing that distrubed me was that, although all the things that
were important in the book were done right in the movie, many of
the things were different than in the book. like, did the
elves really come to aid men in helms deep? i don't think they
did, and even if they did, they weren't lead by haldir. and
didn't the ents decide to attack isengard already in the entmoot?
hmm... it wasn't really that bad that the movie was improvised
a bit here and there, but i found myself being a little disturbed
by it. oh well, it didn't screw up to movie in any way, so i
guess it doesn't really matter.
and yevon forbid, i even liked gollum. O_O
18th december 2002
listening to: final fantasy 9 - you're not alone, with extra bass boosters :)
HO! this song sounds friggin' awesome on my cd player, especially
with all the extra bass i can muster. it's almost hurting my ears
(i think i might be playing it just a tad bit too loud), but i
don't care. it sounds too cool to be turned down. ^_^
i tried to play the cd with all the make-me-grin-like-an-idiot
love songs, but for some reason the cd is all twitchy and shtuff,
and it constantly reads "oops" on the screen ("oops" is something
it says when you shake the player too much for the music to be
played correctly, but i'm not shaking
it at all. it's sitting perfectly still on the table next to me).
i think i might empty the cd one more time and try recording the
songs on another cd, and use this one for music videos and such,
since i figured it wouldn't be as much trouble if the videos
were slightly twitchy. plus, when i tried playing the cd on the
computer, it wasn't twitchy at all. so i think it's best that way.
whoo! 'movement in green' sounds so awesome it's nearly
making me cry. :)
hurr. our biology teacher just told us to keep record of the
things we eat today, so we can use them on some computer program
tomorrow. mine's going to be a sad list. so far - it's 12am -
i've eaten only one apple (and now the sides of my mouth are all
sticky >_<). i didn't eat anything for breakfast, since i didn't
have enough time for it. i'm not going to eat at school (thus the
apple), and when i get out at 4pm, i'm going to go and eat a
microwave dinner at mom's working place. and that only because
i don't have time to go home and eat before two towers at
5pm. and since it's mostly likely going to be a long movie, i
won't get anything to eat before about 9pm, which is when i think
we'll get home. and even that will probably be something light,
like tea or something. i have such a very healthy lifestyle. XD
'jecht's theme' is making my brain vibrate! XD *bounces*
hoo joy. i just realized i have yet one more biology lesson after
this lunchbreak. i just had a double-lesson of it, so basically
i have three hours of biology non-stop on wednesdays. mou~...
lmao! fear kakashi-kun's 1337 ninja-skillz, y0!
you can't even find him
from our own harddrive! XD i bet his pretending to be an mp3 file
or something. ;)
i thought i had something intelligent to blog about, but
apparently i didn't. but i will say this: the applying system
for finnish universities and places of the same "status" is so
totally pissing me off. inanna knows why, i should imagine.
17th december 2002
feeling: sleepy, but otherwise okay
listening to: nothing
hmm, this is not so bad. i wonder why i was so darn afraid of it.
i haven't been nagged at by a single teacher yet, but then again,
i have yet to meet my biology teacher. i don't even dare to think
how much stuff i've missed while being absent. i'm in for a lot
of catching-up during the holidays. eesh.
maybe you could just find
a dvd decoder on the web? or maybe you have to install it
somehow? i dunno, i'm not very experienced with that kind of
i'm so intelligent. i recorded my fave mp3's on cd's so i can
listen to them at school, but forget to take them as well as the
player with me. can we all say "baka^ni"? ¬_¬
i was thinking on buying some more cd's today after school,
though i'm so sure if i should be spending my last 5 euros on
something like that right now. it might be needed later. but
then again, i've done all my christmas shopping and everything
that still needs doing before christmas doesn't require money.
at least as far as i'm concerned. i still need to record some
songs that didn't fit on the other three cd's i bought, plus some
music videos and shtuff.
speaking of which, how's totoro coming along, sissy?
d00d, i've had either 'dont let go' or 'you're still
beautiful to me' stuck in my head all day. at least that's
something worth smiling about. :)
i wish i could watch that romance tribute-video at the
moment. then again, it would only make me cry in front of all
these people. though the video is damn well worth every single
16th december 2002
feeling: a bit better. this is alarming.
listening to: final fantasy 8 - waltz for the moon
yeah. what'd i tell you. leave it up to me to screw my own life
over so brilliantly. ahh well.
and so that a certain person wouldn't forget it, it's monday
i knew from the first moment i layed my eyes on this new computer
that i was going to love to bits, but today has made me love it
even more, if possible. on my way home from school (yeah, so sue
me) i bought three cd-rw records and now they are packed with
videogame and anime goodness. i think i still need to buy a
couple of more cd's for the leftover songs, but i'll probably
have to do that after xmas, when my financial situation has
improved a bit.
hungry. now i must go get some food, and then perhaps i'll try
and make some sense out of my black waltz fanfic.
What's Your Mood?
enh. i don't think that 100% accurate, but nonetheless hits
pretty close to home. this result could've been brought forth by
the fact that i've been feeling so damned weak and worthless and,
above all, angry lately.
What's Your Love Style?
hurr. so true.
feeling: so sleepy i could fall over
listening to: nothing
i'm not even going to try and guarantee that i won't leave in
the middle of the day today. i'll do my best since i'm supposed
to turn in that essay i worked my arse off for yesterday, but
i'm not sure even that's big enough of a motivator. even thinking
that it's only five more days isn't helping at this point. i'm
simply so overall exhausted that sleeping, reading and occasional
blogging are the only things i can bring myself to do. p00.
but i guess i should stop thinking about it, since it only seems
to be making things worse. i guess i should stop thinking all-together
and just go one lesson at a time. that way it'll be
time to go home before i even notice it, right? right...?
at least this week, among all this nasty school, has something
pleasant to look forward, as well. i'm very excited about seeing
two towers at 5pm on wednesday evening - on the opening
night. i actually wanted to go see it in the later showing,
which i think starts around 9pm, but then the movie would end
around maybe midnight and there aren't any busses going to our
direction that late. but i'll live. i'm just worried that all
the noisy kids will be in the earlier showing, since the later
one is too late for them, but then i figured that maybe if i'm
lucky, the parents won't bring their kids in the opening night
showing in the first place. at least i hope so. the perfect way
of ruining someone's movie experience is to have a kid who
doesn't understand a damn thing as to what's going on and is
constantly asking questions in a loud voice sitting next to them.
"why are they going there?" "why is he doing that?" "who are
those people?" "what's going to happen?" "why are they cutting
down the trees?" AAAARGH! >< i still think the age limit
should've been 15, instead of 11. yeah.
14th december 2002
listening to: 'the sixth sense' movie sounds
whee, this new computer so very very swanky! i <3 it very much!
^^ i still find it a little hard to believe that it's actually
here and that it really does have more than 4 gigs of hardrive
space. and i feel i own a big bunch of "thank you"s to inanna, for making buying this darling
possible. i hope the old computer proves out to be worth it. :)
hurr. i need to write an essay for my finnish lessons tomorrow.
i so don't feel like it. ._.
11th december 2002
feeling: very VERY hungry
listening to: noises
XD XD XD
as if i needed something like that! XP
but why does it seem to be impossible to find the single for
bryan adams's on a day like today anywhere?! i've searched
high and low for it, and even amazon doesn't seem to have it.
well, they do have it, but apparently you can't buy it. hmm...
10th december 2002
listening to: people talking
the monitor on this computer is really blurry. it's starting to
stress my eyes to squint at it. >_<
ouch. i need to stop browsing amazon for robin hobb's/megan
lindholm's books. my wishlist is starting to grow dangerously
large. O_O ahh well, it's not like i need the books right away,
but whoever is kind enough to buy them for me will be loved
forever and given loads of ice cream. :)
*dances* we're gonna pick our booked tickets for two towers
today. me very excited. i can't wait to see the movie, and it'll
be even better when seen on the opening night. ^_^
though i'm not sure if i should talk about this, i'm going to
anyway: our new computer should be arriving tomorrow. if memory
serves me right, it has 60 gigs of harddrive space (*swoon*) and
a cd burner, among other things. i'm looking forward to finally
being able to d/l all the things i want and not having to
worry about the computer crashing because it doesn't have enough
free memory to function properly.
i need food.
listening to: people talking in loud voices
and, today it isn't monday! XD
eesh. double-lesson of swedish. waltzes help me. ¬_¬
9th december 2002
feeling: hungry and headachy
listening to: my stomach growl
i have no idea how i'm going to last until 4pm today. i'm
seriously going to need some cheering up later on.
i got attacked by a flurry of snow flying off roofs on my way to
school this morning. not a very pleasant experience. the icy cold
little devils made their way to my skin by slipping over my
collar and under my coat hems, sprayed themselves all over my
face and messed up my hair. i was a mess when i arrived at school,
not to mention freezing. hopefully the winds settle down a bit
during the day. otherwise i'm not leaving the building after
i have become the very thing i despise. my mind is constantly
swirling with thoughts of yaoi and as we discuss reproduction on
our biology lesson, i get an inner giggling fit. i have never
done that during the topic of reproduction and i always got
annoyed at people who did because in my eyes, it's simply very
immature. thankfully it was more of plant reproduction and
not that much of human reproduction - yet - but it still had me
giggling at certain mental images. hopefully i'll be able to
contain myself better when it's time to really discuss human
reproction and all that. ¬_¬
on a more inside jokish note, it's monday today! XD
8th december 2002
listening to: bryan adams - you're still beautiful to me
this song is still making me grin like an idiot. too cute. ^^
kweh. i'm supposed to be writing some home assignment for my
programming course, but at the moment i just can't be bothered.
perhaps i'll do it later. what is it with teachers and home
assignments, anyways? these days we seem to be getting those a
and you say you can't draw
yaoi! bite me, sis! O_O
friday was nice. it was the finnish independence day and pretty
much for the first time it felt more important than just a
normal day to me. we didn't do much, but still it was fun. the
weather was great, it was clear and cold, probably around
-15 degrees. we put out some ice lanterns on both sides of our
"gate" and lit some candles. at 5pm, when it was already dark,
we (mom, me and our step-sis, who was spending the night at ours.
it was too cold for chiko-chiko. :P) went to the town to watch
waterorgans (for those of you who don't know, it's a small show
that consist of lights, music and running water), which quite
possibly was the highlight of the whole evening. and if i wasn't
already feeling patriotic, the music definitely made sure that i
would. they played finlandia, maamme and
porilaisten marssi (hurr, those probably don't mean a
thing to non-finns... o_O), and even though i had trouble hearing
the end of finlandia because all the people there couldn't
keep their damn yaps shut and my toes had gone numb from the
freezing cold weather, it was nonetheless an amazing experience.
i've seen the waterorgans a couple of times before, but never
before has it felt this good to see them. afterwards there were
fireworks, which too were totally awesome. by that time, though,
i was feeling ready to mug some poor unfortunate soul for a cup
of hot chocolate and was more than happy to go home. i spent the
rest of the evening wrapped up in a blanket and watching the
annual reception at the presidental residence on tv. i also kind
of wanted to watch the black-and-white finnish movie the
unknown soldier, but since our cousin, who also came to
visit, is too young to be watching war movies and our step-sis
just didn't want to watch it, i ended up not watching it, either.
instead they played tekken and muppet racemania
and, as chiko-chiko
mentioned, there's finally an update on our black waltz shrine,
which is now called 'tainted wings'. :D
hmm...i think i should start working on that home assignment.
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2nd december 2002
listening to: nothing
i DID get an A in english! ^^
feeling: trust me, you don't want to know
listening to: nothing
just when you think things are finally working out for you,
something like this happens. this is so typical.
today is the day we get all our exam back. all in all, i didn't
think i did that well on my exams (except for maths) and wasn't
really looking forward to getting my grades. well, as it turns
out, i did a whole lot better on my philosophy exam than i
thought i did. i was actually afraid i might not even pass the
exam, but i ended up getting an 8 as my grade. that, in
conjuction with the fact that i also had an 8 from programming,
had me nearly jumping up and down from joy. enter
harsh reality. the maths exam, the one i thought went so well i
would get an A on it, was a total catastrophy. i screwed up all
the questions, i get all the answers wrong and i ended up with a
6 as my grade! a friggin' 6! at the moment i feel ready to break
down and cry. i've always thought i was pretty good at maths and
i can't even remember when i got something lower than an 8 as
my grade. and then i go and get a 6. i'm so damn brilliant. if
it weren't for the accursed sense of duty in me now, i would
pack up my things and go get hit by a car. i can't stand staying
here at the moment, that grade ruined my day so completely. but
if i leave now, i'm going to have to explain my absence to the
headmaster and get my grades from him. and that's something i'm
so not going to do, since he's only going to tell it's my own
damn fault for getting such a lousy grade. shyeah right. it's
easy for him to talk.
well, at least it won't be such a disaster when i won't pass my
physics exam and when i get something less than an A in english.
this day is already so ruined that nothing is going to shock me
anymore. but the physics teacher better keep her stupid yap shut,
cause i'm so not in the mood of listening to one of her stupid
lectures about how bad i did on my physics exam.
i'm so not coming to school tomorrow.
feeling: so very very tired
listening to: the teacher talking
i wish i was sick like mom is. that way i could stay at home and
just sleep all day long and not feel bad about it, like i would
if i just skipped school for that. ~_~
har har, ph33r mah arse-kicking mummy-heads! XD
too sleepy to come up with a proper entry.
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