28th March 2003

feeling: mwhahaha!
listening to: Bryan Adams - On A Day Like Today


HA HA! Silent Hill 3 is coming out on PAL at the end of May! How do you like them apples, eh? Tough luck, NTSC. I'd hate be you at the moment. :P

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feeling: fine
listening to: Apocalyptica - Path


It's Friday and I have no school. Other people of my class are busting their brains with a Maths exam at the moment, but since I won't be taking part of it, I have nowhere to be at the moment. I have the whole day for myself and I'm going to spend it by loitering around in my jammies and doing absolutely nothing worth while. Perhaps, if I can be bothered, I will put up my fanfics. But that will remain to be seen. At some point, I will probably order something from FilmiFriikki, either the 5th DVD of Visions Of Escaflowne or Zone Of The Enders: 2167 IDOLO. Ahh, decisions decisions.

I'll have to agree with Chiko-Chiko on what she said about Naruto ep 24. Extremely impressive, you guys. I wonder if Dosu would be kind enough to lend me his leet cheating skillz for my physics exam next Tuesday. That way all I would have to do was sit in front of my friend Minna and listen to her write all the correct answers. XP
Hehe, Gaara is cute. ^_^

What Drink Are You?
What Drink Are You?


26th March 2003

feeling: somewhat giddy
listening to: nothing


My tag board is being an a$$. Oh well. Guess I'll say what I've got to say here.
I'm actually surprised someone wants to read my crappy stories. But since people, and Chiko-Chiko especially, are getting on my case for putting them up, I might actually do it. When I have the time and energy to get my butt on the comp while I'm at home, that is, and when I'm feeling a little less paranoid about people disliking my writings. XP

My member status has been upgraded at Aestheticism. YAY! Time for Katri to go shop for some yummyjuicyslurp yaoi doujinshi. Nee hee hee... :yaoigrin:
Someone please explain to me what exactly is an "international money order" and how it works.

An hour left of school. Maths. Eesh.



24th March 2003

feeling: so very VERY nervous
listening to: nothing


Ha, look at me. My hands are shaking so much I'm having a hard time typing. I'm so lame. -.-
I gave my pwp for Chiko-Chiko to read and I'm extremely nervous about it. I know for myself that it didn't turn out nearly as good as I had hoped. The story is stupid and the ending is the crappiest in the history of crappy endings. I will probably review it and write it again when I have the time and energy to come up with a better one. The only part I'm actually satisfied with is the smooching part. Imagine that. XP
Yevon, I have this nasty feeling in the pit of my stomach that Chiko-Chiko is honestly going to dislike my fic. Eesh. I thik this is mostly due to me sending it to her immediately after I had finished it, without giving myself a day or two to review it several times to see if I was comfortable with it. That's what I usually do before I give any of my writings to a "beta-reader". Ahh well, it's not like I'm going to put any of these fics of mine on a display somewhere. They're more for my own amusement.

I can't continue with my Maths course due to being absent too much. I'm so brilliant.

You are a Skunk!
You are a Skunk!
What kind of furry are you?
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Riiiight... XD


22nd March 2003

feeling: alright
listening to: Celine Dion - It's All Coming Back To Me Now


We just gave Miiru, our cat, a washing. My arms are now covered with small and not-so-small cuts and there are rather nasty clawmarks on my right shin. Figures it'll do that to you if you have to be the one to hold the struggling cat still. She didn't react as strongly to getting wet as I thought she would, but she still wasn't very fond of it. She gave us more of a hassle about combing out the knots from the root of her tail and hind legs, though, which was when I got most of my scrapes. My fault for trying to protect my clothing by not wearing any trousers at the time, I suppose.

Haven't done any writing for weeks. Will now attempt to get some done. :)


17th March 2003

feeling: O_O
listening to: noises


Whoa! You can pre-order Devil May Cry 2 and Soul Calibur 2 from FilmiFriikki! :O :O

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feeling: anxious for an unknown reason
listening to: still to the music lesson taking place nearby


Haha, gomen Maccie. I forgot you aren't able to see the dance pics anymore, after my account got deleted. Everyone else has already seen them, so it just slipped my mind with all that's going on with my life that you haven't. But anyway, here they are. Please excuse the horrid quality of the pics. ~_~'
*grins at being called "ojo-chan"* ^o^

I also have to state that I am extremely jealous of you getting Anubis: Zone Of The Enders already. I'll be lucky if I get to play it even during this year. Though from what I hear, it should land to PAL this fall. Let's hope that's correct...
Anyway, you make sure you don't toss any spoilers my way, or I'm going to seriously injure you! .V.
On another note, that's what you get for being a "casual" ZOE-ist. *sticks tongue out* Lv 3 Mummyheads are a piece of cake if you know what you're doing. And isn't Jehuty-kun more powerful than ever before, with all those ûber-leet subweapons and all that? And even if you don't have access to those yet, you should NOT be getting your ass handed to you by Mummyheads, for Yevon's sake! Pull yourself together, man! ;P

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feeling: sleepy
listening to: sounds of a music lesson being held nearby


I want a new tattoo. I was thinking I'd have the kanji for "Escaflowne" around my right ankle. Not very large, but still visible enough. Too bad it'll probably cost around as much as my previous tattoo, and currently I can't afford to spend amounts like that on something I don't absolutely, desperately need. Seeing as I have other things (mainly DVDs) to buy, as well. Barf! >o<

I'm feeling tediously bored again today. I have two lessons left (Physics and Finnish), but I have absolutely no energy to see myself attending either of them. Otherwise I would get up and go home, but I have a doctor's appointment at 2:30pm today and I have to stick around for that. Hate. I wish this feeling of major indifference would just go away...


16th March 2003

feeling: somewhat hungry
listening to: Final Fantasy - Prelude (ReFractive Mix)


Just came back from voting. Not nearly as much hassle as I thought it would be. Definitely not as grand an occasion as I somehow expected it to be. Still thinking that mom lied about one of the people being there to try and guess who I voted for. *suspicious*
And no, I'm not going to tell you who I voted for. :P



15th March 2003

feeling: okay-ish
listening to: Heart Of Air - Kiss Me Sunlights (Eternal Version)


FLOWERS FLOWERS FLOWERS FLOWERS WHEEE~! *bounces*

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feeling: eesh
listening to: Final Fantasy X - Lulu's Theme


My mind boggles. I got a text message last night from a guy I have last seen when we were on 5th grade. At the beginning of 6th grade he just vanished somewhere and I have nor seen or heard nothing of him since then. Heck, for all I knew, he might've as well been dead. Anyway, he sent me a text message last night asking if I was the same girl he went to school with. I was like "yeah, that's me...", and then we just talked for a while. He apparently just stumbled upon my number in a phone book. Imagine that. ¬_¬
Now he seems to think I'm his new best friend. While it's all nice and dandy to hear about old friends, I find this somewhat oppressive. He's constantly messaging me and apparently wants me to meet with him, and I find myself feeling "eesh...!". He apparently takes me for the kind of person who's constantly looking out to spend time with friends, and that's not who I am at all. I like having friends, but meeting them once or twice a month is quite enough for me. I like my own private life better than constantly hanging out with other people. And this goes for new and old friends alike.
I guess one thing that makes this feel so aggravating to me is the fact that he's a male. These days I have a very hard time associating with guys and I've noticed I'm trying to alienate myself from them. So while I have nothing against him personally (in fact, we were really good friends in elementary school), this just doesn't feel good and natural to me.
Hopefully he'll get the point once I'm evasive enough for a while. Juvenile, I know, but that's the way I handle things with guys. So bite me.

Urge...to order...ZOE: 2167 IDOLO...rising... >o<


14th march 2003

feeling: bored
listening to: my stomach growl


i'm spamming my own blog because i can't think of anything else to do. i want to go and get something to eat, but it's still too early for that. mom gets off work at 4pm, after which she's going to get a haircut, and i'm supposed to wait for her, cause after that she's going to visit a travel agency to get information about trips to kolmården this summer (that's a zoo, just in case you didn't know) and for some reason wants me to come with her. ahh well, i don't mind. if me going with her means she'll get it done sooner, i'll be more than happy to go with her. wolf park, here i come! o^_^o

*faints*
kukunor is selling the escaflowne: a girl on gaia movie, both in its "basic" form, as well as the ultimate edition. but guess what? they are both region-1 dvd's, and thus won't play on our ps2. how brilliant is that? *shoots self*
they also have final fantasy x artbook, but it's too pricey for my budget. suckage.

on another note, i know someone who might have some use for this. ^_~

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i>feeling: air-headed
listening to: people talking

visions of escaflowne dvd-volume 5 is out in a few days. gah. someone please send me money so i can buy it. i've spent too much on things like these as it is. heck, i'm about to spend 90€ on an escaflowne artbook. as it turn out, i am not very good at managing my funds...

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feeling: still hungry
listening to: nothing


i wish i had a chicken salad to eat. that'd be great. mmmm... chicken salad... i think i might go 'round to hesburger and buy me one of those. i'm so hungry i can barely see straight. >o<

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feeling: hungry and tired
listening to: nothing


i was late for my maths lesson today and almost stayed home. thankfully i didn't, though. for one, i couldn't afford to be absent for a single lesson anymore, and two, we learned something (semi)new today.
i wouldn't have minded an extra day off, though. my art lessons are so tediously boring that i have absolutely no desire to go there, also seeing as i haven't done the assignment we were supposed to do for today's lesson. but i guess i need to go, since i have to (again) talk to the teacher about making my sake tokkuri and chiko-chiko's mask during our lessons, as well as about chiko-chiko joining me to the lessons to make them. blah. i wish i was a bit more artsy person, that way the lessons wouldn't be so boring.

according to the counter, by blog has gotten over 20 hits since yesterday. geez, someone must really be interested in my life. or bored beyond their wits. take your pick. ¬_¬

friday five:

1. Do you like talking on the phone? Why or why not?
i'm not really keen on talking on the phone, but i don't really resent it, either. i can handle talking on the phone better with people i know and am comfortable with (mom, sissy...), whereas i have serious issues with phoning complete strangers.

2. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
mom, just this morning. she phoned to see i was awake. ¬_¬

3. About how many telephones do you have at home?
all the phones combined, there's four of 'em. the regular phone, my cell, mom's cell and chiko-chiko's cell.

4. Have you encountered anyone who has really bad phone manners? What happened?
well, i consider it very rude that people hang up without saying anything. you should at least say "sorry, wrong number" or something. anyway, this once happened to me but it was as much my fault as the caller's. i answered the phone by saying "hai, moshi-moshi?" (japanese) and the caller apparently didn't understand what i said. s/he just waited there silently for a moment and then hung up. of course, i could've said something to indicate that the call hadn't ended up in japan, but was too dumb-struck to do it. in any case, i think callers like that are rude.

5. Would you rather pick up the phone and call someone or write them an e-mail or a letter? Why or why not?
if it was a stranger, i would rather write an e-mail or even go see them in person than call them. i dunno, i have some unidentified fear of phoning strangers. if it was someone close to me, i would probably call them. but all in all, i feel more comfortable sending e-mail.

physics next. whee...


13th march 2003

feeling: hungryyyy~
listening to: my stomach growl


this computer is sloo00oow and i'm hungry as heck. i should've gone and bought that stupid sandwich on my lunchbreak. but alas, i was not smart enough and now i will have to go hungry. i could of course just go home and get something to eat, but i can't be bothered just yet. i'll probably catch the 15:30 buss, so that leaves me 20 minutes before i have to go. if i calculate my minutes correctly, i might even have time to go buy that sandwich. ^_~

i officially want a nokia 8310 as a b-day present. you are welcome to buy it for me. :china:

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feeling: alright
listening to: people talking


just so everyone knows: rock lee is ugly ugly UGLY and i will die if i ever have to see him again! XD

i want a new cell for my b-day. my current is so old it will most likely fall apart during the next few years if i don't switch to a new one soon. besides, the battery is almost dead and lasts no more than few days before i have to recharge. i have my eyes set on a model i'd like to have, but my only worry is that it is so darn expensive. 500€ for a phone! whee...

hn. i have an hour and a half before i have another lesson and i can't think of anything to do. i am extremely tempted to go home but unfortunately i can't do that if i am to pass my maths course. barbababa!

i need to start exercising. or something. anyway, i am gaining weight and i dislike it very much. yevon, if i didn't know better i'd say i was pregnant. too bad i can't be bothered to start jogging. inline skating would be cool, but don't you think it'd be a bit hard to do it all year around? ¬_¬ maybe i should start going to the gym... *ponders*
i just wish they had kendo in lahti. everything would be so much more simple that way.

oh yeah. got a new wallpaper from chiko-chiko yesterday. nee hee hee. can't wait to use it. :yaoigrin:


11th march 2003

feeling: hungry
listening to: bryan adams - you're still beautiful to me, which is stuck in my head


mmm... yaoi juices. ^^

i found myself not paying attention on my physics lesson today because i was so busy dwelling on my yaoi fics. ;D~

btw, is the point of talking to a psychiatrist to make you feel distressed and anxious about yourself? because that's what happened to me. o_O

i'm so hungry i don't seem to be capable of writing a single sentence that makes sense. haha, oh well. i wish i could go home already, but i still have one lessons of english. thankfully that's not so bad. i think.

oh, and one more thing: bryan adams' live at slane castle dvd f00king 0wnz! i say you have not lived until you have seen the man live. not that i've been to that many live concerts, but i dare say bryan just gives the best ones out there. i even got that giddy, über-genki, hyped-up feeling i had in his concert a year ago just by watching the dvd. ahh, the feeling of hearing everything i do live... *bliss*


10th march 2003

feeling: 9_9
listening to: nothing


i friggin' hate hang-overs. from now on, i'll drink nothing but shoopuf milk. there, i said it. spending the entire day with your face down the toiletbowl is not fun and i have no desire to do it again. dry-heaving is disgusting.

i have my first music lessons today. i'm feeling a bit weird about it, since there have actually already been six lessons of it. i have just not attended them. hopefully i can still catch up. otherwise i will have to do it next year. which, if you think about it, wouldn't be so bad, as i have my "reading holiday" this time next year and would have nothing to do but hang around the house anyway. hmmm. that's an intriguing thought. i wonder if it would be possible to do it that way...

i'm bored. boo000ooored.


8th march 2003

feeling: okay-ish
listening to: rem - everybody hurts


went to a rave last night. well, it wasn't a real "american style" rave, since it was intended for young (16-ish) people and there wasn't any booze or drugs available as far as i could tell. it was alright. the music was good if you don't care for the melody that much and just want to dance to the beat, which is also good. i know i enjoy that on occasion. the positive thing with that kind of dancing is that you don't really think about anything meaningful, you just concentrate on moving. and for me that is a good enough of a reason to do something like this every once in a while. the flashing lights and the smoke started to make me queasy towards the end of the night, which probably explains why i feel as if i had a hangover today. but all in all, i think i enjoyed it. at least it'll serve as more-or-less of a workout for now. XP
one thing i noticed though is that it's amazing how differently the people who're there to pick up guys dance from the people who aren't (such as myself). it's a real cattle market if you're looking to hook yourself up with someone for the night. eesh, i say. EESH!
it's amazing what kind of thoughts your mind spouts up in places like that, though. ahh, if only i could write humor/parody... :yaoigrin:

will probably go out with some friends tonight (read: hang out at bars and get drunk). i haven't met up with my "old" friends in months, so it should be interesting to hang out with them again. the sad thing is that every time we get together these days it is to get drunk. oh well, i guess that's something. at least drinking will get my mind of things. too bad chiko-chiko won't be there, since i'm pretty certain my mind will start working overtime after enough many drinks. ;P

hungry.


7th march 2003

feeling: surprisingly positive
listening to: nothing


not much happening today. sorted out things with my maths teacher. she says i can still attend her classes, so that's all good. i also had a chat with my physics teacher and everything's fine there, as well. yayness. now i still need to meet my art and music teachers, but i'm sure there'll be no problems there. just that i've missed 6 hours of my music lessons and thus have no clue as to how to play the guitar, but that shouldn't pose too much trouble. i'm a quick study, or at least i'd like to think so. i just need to drag my butt there first. but that's not until on monday.

my blog has gotten 141 hits this month. hmm. considering it's only the 7th, i'm curious to know who reads this thing besides the few people i know to read this. i need to install comments or something on this thing. ¬_¬

friday five:

1. What was the last song you heard?
umm...probably here i am by bryan adams

2. What were the last two movies you saw?
movies, excluding series? umm... robin hood: men in tights and full metal jacket.

3. What were the last three things you purchased?
visions of escaflowne dvd-volume 4, shounen jump, 'kermit the frog' mug.

4. What four things do you need to do this weekend?
eesh. finish my photography portfolio, start designing our cosplay, write smut, play ff10.

5. Who are the last five people you talked to?
mom, minna, my maths teacher, my maths partner, myself.

i've got physics next. joy. thankfully i don't need to understand diddly-squad because i'll get a course of it even if i get a 4 out of it. so i'm not going to stress over it. after that i have art. blah. hopefully it'll at least be interesting. remind me to talk to the teacher about using the art class for doing chiko-chiko's mask and my sake tokkuri for the cosplay.


6th march 2003

feeling: hungry
listening to: guys make noises


well, i'm asking anyway. and you WILL tell me what happened once we get home. i want know what is so stupid a thing to do that you need to make a blog entry like that about it. ;D

haha, at least i know what i'll be looking at, then. hopefully i'll get a different psychiatrist, though. yours is horrid. like you said, one can barely get a word in when talking with her. talk about a blabbermouth. oO
let's see if i can handle talking to a psychiatrist better than mugee did in my fic, shall we. ;)

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feeling: hungry and air-headed
listening to: nothing


feeling: hungry and air-headed
listening to: nothing


oooookay, sissy... not sure i wanna know. XD
psst. btw, the entry is filled with typos. just so you know. ^_~

talked to our school nurse a short while ago. she said it's definitely depression. she'll give a call to the youth pschiatric thing-a-magig today to make an appointment for me to talk to a real psychologist about my problems. i'm going to go hear the details of it all after i get out of school at 2pm. i'm feeling empty somehow. the nurse said a large part of the problem was solved just by me coming to talk to her and acknowledging that i have a problem. figures. i can't say i feel relieved byt this. it's overwhelmingly hard for me to talk about my feelings to strangers, especially if they're not positive feelings. and i hate wallowing in self-pity, but i guess that's what i'm doing anyway, so it doesn't really matter if do it there or on my own. and i swear, if i hear one more cliche about how everything's going to be alright, i'm going to strangle someone. i get enough of that from mom (no offence, mom, i know you're just doing your best), i don't need it from people who are supposed to be professionals at making me feel better.

anyway, enough about that.

still three hours to go until i can get out of here. thankfully one of them is a free lesson, so that'll make things easier the bear. after that there's maths and physics. hate. but what can you do? i need the courses to graduate. blah. at least it'll keep me busy and away from wallowing in my misery. i just want to go home.

on a happier note, my 4th dvd-volume of visions of escaflowne has arrived. i'm going to pick it up from the post office after i get out of school.

filled out a summerjob application yesterday. i applied to work for the town, mowing lawn or taking care of gardens and things like that. since it's going to be a summerjob, i'll be damned if i'm going to spend it indoors, organizing mens' underwear (not as much fun as it sounds, though i'm sure my yaoi infected mind could make the best of it ^_~). so hopefully that'll turn out well. though i am doubtful. but time will tell. and heck, if that fails, i can always mow lawn and take care of flowers at out own backyard or at grandma's place.
see, i'm looking at the positive side of things!

i wish it was summer already. i'm sick of the cold.


5th march 2003

feeling: adrift
listening to: nothing


blah. blah blah blahhety blah. blaaahh.

sissy has a super-swanky layout up. it looks more profesional than mine does. it's probably due to the colored tables. i'm jealous. *huggles jehuty and anubis*

i don't want to be here. it's making me feel...inferior somehow. i dunno. do you ever get the feeling you're in schindler's list, but with the twist that you're the grey one while everyone else is in color?

i need help. thankfully my english teacher is nice and didn't give me a hard time. which is more than can probably be said of my maths or physics teacher. great, what on gaea am i gonna do now...

a survey, stolen from inanna:

1. Three books you read recently:
well, the ones i'm currently reding would be:
the mad ship by robin hobb
fool's errand by robin hobb
lord of the rings by j.r.r. tolkien

2. A character from a work of fiction you really identify with:
wak, i don't know. i grown fond of characters, but never really identify with them. fitz chivalry from the farseer?

3. What other living things are in the room you're in?
about a dozen of other students. if you can call 'em living things.

4. Pick a card, any card.
ace of clubs.

5. Dogs or cats?
i love both, but i'm still going to go with cats here.

6. Any addictions?
videogames, yaoi, ice cream, writing...

7. Pick a god, any god.
anubis.

8. Describe your spirit guide.
not sure if i have one.

9. Describe your true shape.
like me but prettier, with long, black or blood-red hair and in a better shape.

10. When you become king, who's first up against the wall?
dubya.

11. "It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" - Comment.
bull.

12. What's that warm, fuzzy feeling all about, eh?
having all day to yourself, having nothing to do but loiter around should you wish to do so, having a good time with your friends... just generally doing the things that make you feel good.

13. Where did all the fairies go?
so sure they're gone?

14. If you were an item of clothing, you'd be...
a hooded cloak or a bath robe. or zori.

maths next. joy...


1st march 2003

feeling: blah
listening to: marilyn manson - beautiful people


should be getting some writing done, but i don't feel quite creative enough for that.

on another note, "dolores,i" ep 6 finally downloaded. whee! ^_^

because i'm bored, the 7 sins quizzy-thingy, stolen from drew:

* ANGER

* Who did you last get angry with?
can't remember. probably mom.
* What is your weapon of choice?
baka-smack. XP
* Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
given good enough of a reason, yes.
* How about of the same sex?
again, with good enough of a reason, yes.
* Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
can't remember.
* Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
depends on the person in question, but in general i hold grudges.

* SLOTH

* What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time?
ehh...go to school. *sweatdrop*
* What is the latest you've ever woken up?
hmm...around noon i suppose. i don't usually sleep very late.
* Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't?
gah. my friends jenni and jonna.
* What is the last lame excuse you made?
i don't generally make excuses.
* Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)?
as far as i can recall, yes, i have.
* When was the last time you got a good workout in?
a LONG time ago.
* How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?
my alarm clock doesn't have a snooze button. plus, my alarm clock doesn't go off on saturdays.

* GLUTTONY

* What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
ehh...dunno.
* Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat?
white meat. aka, chicken, turkey or fish.
* What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?
geez. i have no idea. A LOT.
* Have you ever used a professional diet company?
nope.
* Do you have an issue with your weight?
in reality, i don't. psychologically, a little. i sometimes think i should loose some weight.
* Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?
spicy foods, usually.
* Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH?"
hurr hurr. no.

* LUST

* How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?
at once? XD
* How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family?
ehh...one that i know of.
* Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?
hehe, i don't think so.
* Have you "done it"?
nope.
* What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?
uhh...do eyes count? if not, i have a thing for lean but muscular bodies.
* Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?
i don't think i have. o_O
* Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?
nope.

* GREED

* How many credit cards do you own?
none. ;_;
* What's your guilty pleasure store?
i don't think i really have one.
* If you had £1 million, what would you do with it?
buy loads of dvd's, games and music, plus a house.
* Would you rather be rich, or famous?
rich.
* Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?
probably yes.
* Have you ever stolen anything?
possibly.
* How many MP3s are on your hard drive?
i'm supposed to keep track of things like that?

* PRIDE

* What one thing have you done that you're most proud of?
now that's a tough one... probably gotten to the school i'm currently in.
* What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?
i don't know. gone to upper secondary school?
* What thing would you like to accomplish in your life?
be content.
* Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?
ehh...yeah.
* Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?
umm...some tekken and zoe matches against other people.
* Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?
in elementary school when we had to learn the multiplication tables and i couldn't be bothered, i guess i cheated in the pop quizzes.
* What did you do today that you're proud of?
can't think of anything...

* ENVY

* What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
maccie's tibook.
* Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces"?
nani...? o_O
* If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?
my sissy. she's so much like me that it wouldn't make a big difference. other than that i would know how to draw.
* Have you ever been cheated on?
no.
* Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
i wish my physical condition was better.
* What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?
un-laziness and a better sense of duty.
* Do you wish you'd come up with this survey?
haha. no.
* Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin?
this is easy. sloth.

* FAITH

* What religion do you follow?
none. though based on ideals, i guess i'm pretty close to shinto.
* What religion were you raised?
christianity.
* Do you believe that forgiveness is a religious property, or a human property?
i suppose human.
* Do you believe in magic?
yes, i do.
* What was the last promise you broke?
that i would skip no more school.
* Have you ever said the words to a prayer and not meant it?
probably.
* Do you believe that anyone could be perfect?
subconsciously i know that no one can, but i still strive to be.

* HOPE

* Did you get everything you wanted over the last holiday season?
no. *glares at sis* XP
* Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for?
get a job as an ethologist or a videogame programmer, doind photography and writing on the side.
* Do you let yourself get your hopes up for something even if you know that there is a large chance of failure?
i used to. these days i'm extremely careful of not getting my hopes up.
* Do you believe in magic?
wasn't this asked already? ¬_¬
* Have you ever bought a lottery ticket?
yes.
* Do you gamble?
nope.
* Have you ever had something called off on account of bad weather, but then gone ahead and done it anyway?
umm...i guess so?

* CHARITY

* What causes do you support?
world wildlife fund and greenpeace.
* What causes have you given money or time to?
see above.
* Have you ever worked in a soup kitchen or done another kind of outreach for the homeless?
nope.
* Would you ever consider joining the Peace Corps, Amnesty International, or another travel-inherent worldwide charity group?
i don't know. i might.
* Do you give money to the homeless on the street?
i don't usually run into those.
* Have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like rent or food?
in my circle of friends, such issues aren't really topical yet.
* What's the greatest extent you've gone to help a friend in need?
not much, as i recall. usually my friends don't need that much help...

* FORTITUDE

* What are you most afraid of?
not being able to breathe, losing my sissy, dying before i accomplish anything meaningful with my life.
* What did you do today that was really brave?
REALLY brave...? nothing.
* Who is your favorite superhero, and why?
spawn, i think. why? he's such an anti-hero.
* Would you put your life in danger to rescue someone?
depends on who i'm supposed to rescue. for family, yes. for a stranger, no.
* If you were to face the Wizard, would you want more courage, more brains, or more heart?
someone might say i should ask for more heart, but i would probably ask for more brains.
* Have you ever gotten stage fright? If so, when?
every time i'm supposed to "get on stage".
* Do you consider yourself to be a leader or a follower?
somewhere in the between, slightly tilted to the leader-end.

* JUSTICE

* Have you ever been summoned for jury duty?
nope.
* If they reinstituted the draft (for both genders), would you go, or would find some way out of it?
i probably wouldn't go.
* Do you support capital punishment (the death penalty)?
hmm...no.
* Do you believe that Dubya is rightfully President of the USA?
no.
* What was your favorite media circus trial?
eh?
* Have you ever written a letter to a politician?
yup.

* TEMPERANCE

* What do you have the hardest time moderating yourself on?
i dunno...
* Do you collect anything?
tie-ins, plants, used movie tickets...
* Are you addicted to anything?
ice cream, videogames, yaoi...
* Have you ever put anything on layaway or used an installment plan?
i think so.
* What's your preferred method of paying for things?
ehh...cash when i have it?
* Tell us one thing you wish you hadn't let yourself do?
oh, there are many things. and no, i'm not going to tell you.
* Do you feel that you obsess over things?
definitely.

* PRUDENCE

* Who is the wisest person you know?
inanna or my grandma.
* Have you ever participated in a vigil?
no.
* Do you take advice when it's given?
i try to, but usually not.
* What area are you wisest in?
things in my field of interest.
* Do you drive defensively?
i don't have a driver's licence.
* Have you ever had unprotected sex outside of marriage?
to answer this question, i should be married first, ne?
* What did you learn today?
that i look funky with fiery red hair.

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feeling: okay-ish
listening to: tekken 4 game sounds


whee, new layout! as you probably noticed, it's zoe. again. what can i tell you - i'm obsessed. too bad i couldn't find a version of the pic with just jehuty and anubis and WITHOUT dingo and nohman. it would've been so much cooler that way. oh well. i guess it can't be helped. apparently konami doesn't think that anyone could be obsessed with "just" the frames, and not the characters. :P

i know i should be compiling my photography portfolio today, but i just can't be bothered. i don't want to spend my last free days thinking about school stuff, but alas, i doon't think it can be helped. i've been putting off returning the portfolio for months (i was supposed to turn it in before xmas), so i think it's high time i did something for it. i'll be lucky if the teacher will even give me my grade anymore...

my hair is red. very red. think player-2 yoshimitsu's hair in tekken 4. THAT red. not quite as long, though (unfortunately). yesterday my hair was orange. think carrots. we bleached my hair on friday to make the red dye look better, but as my previous color was so dark, it didn't come out completely. so while my roots were practically white, the rest of my hair was orange. i looked weird to say the least. o_-