31st october 2002

feeling: a bit annoyed
listening to: nothing

well it sure as hell seemed that way. and yes, you do have a right to be pissed off and to complain, but you sure as hell don't have the right to take it out on me. you wanted to go, then fine, you should've gone (with or without me). but it's not my friggin' fault that you're not 18 and it sure as hell ain't my fault that the tourney was k-18. taking your anger out on me won't make you 18 any sooner, either, so you can quit bitching at me and take it like the adult that you (supposedly) are.

sorry.

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dude, it's just a tekken tourney. get over it. there'll be other tourneys. and if not, who gives a toss. i know i'm percetly happy playing tekken by myself. i don't need to prove myself in a tourney. besides, the idea of meeting that many new people feels repelling to me. besides, you have no right to be angry at me about not going. i can make my own decisions when it comes to things like this, and it's not your place to judge them. so sorry if you find that offensive, but it's the truth.

hurr, i finally managed to link to maccie's journal. i've been meaning to do it for ages now, but always forgot.

i wanna go home and play ff10.

oh, and HAPPY HALLOWEEN, EVERYONE!


29th october 2002

feeling: dead
listening to: some guys talking

...school is hell, the bathrooms smell... ><

that is so true. i can't believe how tired i am today, even though i just had a week long holiday and should in the best shape of my life after doing nothing but eating and sleeping for a week. figures i got too used to sleeping late and not having to do anything meaningful. ¬_¬
but i gotta say, it was nice to spend most of my holiday at grandma's. i bet i gained about 5 extra kilos during the five days i spent there. :P but nontheless, it was a refreshing experience to get away from the noise and pollution of the city and be surrounded by trees for once. i can't believe how dark it gets out there at night! O_O

i'm too lazy to think of anything sensible to blog, so i'll just do this quiz i stole from riikka:

1. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
for school at 6:30am. if not going to school, around 9am.

2. IF YOU COULD EAT LUNCH WITH ONE FAMOUS PERSON, WHO WOULD IT BE?
you mean a real person? ummm...probably bryan adams. yeah, it'd be really nice to meet him.

3. GOLD OR SILVER?
silver.

4. WHAT WAS THE LAST FILM YOU SAW AT THE CINEMA?
signs. damn freakiest movie i ever saw.

5. FAVORITE TV SHOW?
visions of escaflowne. though that prolly doesn't count, as it really isn't a tv show in finland. other than that, i suppose ER or CSI.

6. WHAT DO YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST?
cereals. or sometimes bread and juice, or tea.

7. WHAT WOULD YOU HATE TO BE LEFT IN A ROOM WITH?
a wasp. >< ><

8. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE?
no. and i'm not going to try, either.

9. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
gah, i dunno. i don't do artistic stuff. thought for writing the right kind of music works well.

10. WHAT'S YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
emilia.

11. BEACH, CITY, OR COUNTRY?
country.

12. SUMMER OR WINTER?
winter.

13. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
lemon-lime, or just plain vanilla.

14. BUTTERED, LAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN?
salted.

15. FAVORITE COLOR?
black, dark red, dark purple.

16. FAVORITE CAR?
volkswagen new beetle, or that hyundai car that looks like a shark (couldn't find what it's called).

17. FAVORITE SANDWICH?
none, really.

18. WHAT CHARACTERISTICS DO YOU DESPISE IN PEOPLE?
hypocrisy, weakness, selfisness, cruelty, ignorance.

19. FAVORITE FLOWER?
lilies and roses, both preferably white.

20. IF YOU HAD A BIG WIN IN THE LOTTERY, HOW LONG WOULD YOU WAIT TO TELEPHONE PEOPLE?
'til i was sure i really won and i had to money in my hands (or on my account, if it was too much money to fit in my hands).

21. FIZZY OR STILL WATER AS A DRINK?
still. fizzy tastes nasty, somehow. ><

22. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHROOM?
white, i think. o_O

23. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
house key, mailbox key, bike key, the key to my bike's extra lock. so that makes...lessee, 4.

24. WHERE WOULD YOU RETIRE TO?
new zealand would be swanky. ^_^

25. CAN YOU JUGGLE? IF YES, HOW MANY?
tekken doesn't count, does it? ^_~ yeah, i can juggle with two balls.

26. FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK?
saturday.

27. RED OR WHITE WINE?
white, preferably.

28. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
stayed at home and had some relatives visit me.

29. DO YOU CARRY A DONOR CARD?
you mean like...organ donor? no, and i'm not going to, either.

30. BONUS QUESTION: WHAT ARE YOU DRESSING UP AS FOR HALLOWEEN?
hmmm...i'm probably not gonna dress up as anything, but if i were, i'd use my black waltz 03 (from final fantasy 9) costume



Which Element Represents You?
created by kefkafanatic @ mental insanity


17th october 2002

feeling: tired
listening to: visions of escaflowne - aoi hitomi, which is stuck in my head

a quiz-thingy, stolen from inanna:

"Answer these using the lyrics of just ONE band:"
bryan adams

1. are you a male or female?
some people never learn
my life ain't their concern

2. describe yourself:
here i am - this is me
i come into this world so wild and free
here i am - so young and strong
right here in the place where i belong

3. how do they feel about you?
now it cuts like a knife
but it feels so right
it cuts like a knife
but it feels so right

4. how do you feel about yourself?
on the edge of a dream
you know you are
on the edge of a dream
we've been waitin' for this chance to be free
on the edge of a dream

5. describe your girlfriend/boyfriend?
mama told me there'd be days like these
i shoulda known better maybe
woulda seen right through ya
i needed you like a disease
i ain't gonna cry over you

6. what would you rather be doing?
getaway - ya know it's now or never
getaway - nobody lives forever
we're only waitin' just to make you getaway

7. describe where you live?
under the starry skies - where eagles have flown
this place is paradise - it 's the place i call home
the moon on the mountains
the whisper through the trees
the waves on the water
let nothing come between this and me

8. describe how you love:
when you love someone - you'll do anything
you'll do all the crazy things that you can't explain
you'll shoot the moon - put out the sun
when you love someone
you'll deny the truth - believe a lie
there'll be times that you'll believe you can really fly
but you're lonely nights - have just begun
when you love someone

9. share a few words of wisdom?
life - as thin as a thread
sometimes you're lucky
sometimes you're better off dead
your first breath is taken and into the world you are cast
you long for tomorrow while living each day as your last
well i know what your heart desires
but you can't take it with you
into the fire


16th october 2002

feeling: hungry
listening to: ff9 gamesounds


What is Your Native American Totem?
brought to you by Quizilla

this is probably gonna screw up my tables, but who cares. ^_^

and yes, as riikka so subtly (XD) put it, we have officially gotten out first snow last night. there's only about 1 cm of it on the ground, but enough to put you on a wintery mood. i didn't make my first snowball today, though, which i regret. luckily i still have time, unless the snow suddenly decides to melt away. which is still very likely at this point, unfortunately. :(

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feeling: sleepy -_o
listening to: teacher talking


What Was Your PastLife?

har har! so true! XD


14th october 2002

feeling: worried and anxious
listening to: nothing

our philosophy teacher decided not to show up. we waited for her for 20 minutes and then left. it's all good, though. philosophy lesson is the last thing i need right now. i can't stand the subject and the lessons are so boring it's surprising i haven't started to sprout cobwebs yet. profound thinking is good when you're doing it on your own, but when you have to learn all the different ways of thinking since aristoteles, it gets really old really fast. i'm just happy that she didn't show up. unannounced free-periods are always nice. ^_^

all in all, school is the last place i want to be at the moment. i'm so worried about our cat, miiru. she hurt her leg yesterday and was really sensitive about it all last night. she was very careful not to put too much weight on her leg and she was really reluctant to jump anywhere. and no, it's not just because she's chubby that she doesn't like jumping. she used to do it a whole lot before, nevermind her tummy. her walking had gotten better over night, as mom said she didn't limp much when she came out for breakfast this morning, so hopefully it's nothing serious. we'll just have to wait a bit and see if she's still sensitive about jumping tonight. if she is, we'll probably take her to the vet sometime soon. i pray to ada it's nothing serious. i can't even concentrate on anything in school today because i'm so worried about miiru. :(

on a happier note, i'm totally loving ff6 at the moment. shadow r0x0rz, y0. ^^

friday five:
(i know it's not friday, but who cares!)

1. If you could only choose 1 cd to ever listen to again, what would it be?
hmm, toughie. probably either visions of escaflowne or zone of the enders soundtrack.

2. If you could only choose 2 movies to watch ever again, what would they be?
escaflowne: a girl on gaia and...hmm, probably braveheart.

3. If you could only choose 3 books to read ever again, what would they be?
either the lord of the rings or the farseer trilogies.

4. If you could only choose 4 things to eat or drink ever again, what would they be?
hot chocolate milk, lingonberry-black currant juice, salmon in lemon sauce, hot chicken wings with rice. yam-MY! :)~

5. If you could only choose 5 people to ever be/talk/associate /whatever with ever again, who would they be?
riikka, mom, dad, grandma and inanna.


10th october 2002

feeling: weird
listening to: final fantasy 10 - suteki da ne

meh. finished ff10 yesterday evening, and all i can say is "wow!". never did i expect the game to have such an unhappy ending. for one, i was really thrown out by the fact that they let tidus vanish. the whole time i was expecting that they'd come up with something to stop him from "dying" after they beat yu yevon. i mean, he was the main guy after all. it just seems unreal that square would do something like that to their main character. then again, square doesn't usually go for unhappy endings, either. and ff10's ending was really really sad. it had be crying like a little girl for several reasons. tidus disappering was one thing. even though i wasn't so fond of his character, it was still heart-wrenching to watch him say goodbye to yuna and then jump off into...whatever it is he jumped off into. i almost got a heart-attack when yuna just went through him when she tried to hug him. that was an awful moment.
another reason was auron's sending. good lord how that scene made me cry. i was extremely fond of auron's character (not to mention his butt ^_~) and eventhough on some level i guess i knew he would be sent at some point, i didn't want it to happen. that scene was, to put it simply, beautiful. the way auron accepted that it was his time to go was really sad, but also heart- warming. and the way he "punched" kimahri before leaving was just too cute. ^^ i wish the scene would've been an fmv, though. i think auron would've deserved that. though i don't even dare to imagine how much that would've made me cry. :P
the saddest thing, as riikka alredy said, was the fact that i had to fight and kill my own aeons. no words can describe how much that made me hate that yu yevon-guy. imagine first acquiring all of them (which took a fair amount of time, mind you!), then spending 200 hours maxing their stats with the same thoroughness as you max out you party, making sure they stay healthy and each in equally good fighting condition as the other, and generally just considering them as your babies throughout the whole game, and then having to kill them with your own hands. wouldn't feel so good, would it? hell, i think i was more emotionally attached to my aeons than to my party. just having to fight them damn near made me cry, and seeing them turn into stone and vanishing in the final fmv was enough to have my crying like an idiot. for the 300 hours it took me to finish the game, they were my babies, for cryin' out loud! especially valefor, ifrit, ixion, bahamut and above all, yojimbo. i even took extra care to keep yojimbo-kun happy and his affection levels high. at times he would even do zanmato without being payed, that's how good care i took of him and his levels. and then i had to kill him. poor poor yojimbo. :( *hugs yojimbo-kun*

this is the last time i'm ever doing that stat maxing thing, though. lord, it was so embarrasing beating everyone with one single hit. i had practically beaten the last seymour before his battle theme could even start properly. i took him out with one hit. one hit! ¬_¬ braska's final aeon took three. yu yevon, the final (and supposedly toughest boss in the game) took one. just one hit from kimahri and the guy was goners. and here i was, worried that my stats might not be good enough for beating the final boss. as if they could be any better than 255, anyways... ~_~ but seriously, more than anything it was embrassing going around slaughtering the final bosses with one-hit-overkills. next time i play this game, i'm sure as heck not going for a complete sphere grid or 255 stats. 9999 for one hit will be more than enough for next time.
i still didn't quite finish the game 100%. i didn't beat nemesis, for one. i was supposed to, but i needed to collect 10 of each monster from inside sin, and i didn't know when i'm supposed to turn back if i'm still going to do something before beating the game. until it was too late, anyways. that icicle room was hilarious. what the hell was its point? last minute weapon- gathering? :P i guess i'm gonna have to do the stat maxing thing at least once more if i'm going to beat nemesis and get clear spheres. why i would need them is beyond me, though. i would just set myself up for another embarrassing final battle with them.


8th october 2002

feeling: stuffed
listening to: visions of escaflowne - the day the wind blows

whee, a new layout! and this time it's neith. go neith! she really is one bad-ass mecha! ^o^

now i really need to go do my homework. :O

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the unreality quiz, from glass's blog:

1) what is your favorite unreal land? (middle earth, narnia, raccoon city, etc.)
hurr...this is a toughie. prolly gaea, discworld and middle earth.

2) what is your favorite unreal animal?
ngh. really unimaginative, but dragons.

3) would you be an unreal creature that must murder to sustain itself?
certainly. it could be a little laborious to find new people to kill, but sure, why not. wouldn't be a problem for me.

4) what unreal creature would you like to be most of all?
ngh. another toughie. probably an elf or a vampire. being an ent would be nifty, as well.

5) how would you dress if humanoid, and popular style were not a concern?
hmm...something involving a cape, a rather loose and dark green in color. beyond that, i don't know. something ninja-ish, i suppose.

6) in your own ideal world, what color would the sky be?
blue. i like the blueness of the sky too much to have it any other color.

7) would it be a peaceful land or a war-torn one?
a little both. some places would be really peaceful and war-free, but between some of the larger towns there could be some skirmishing going on. but not a large-scale war.

8) what would be the government of this land?
kingdom. i like kingdoms.

9) how technologically advanced would you like it?
think visions of escaflowne. :P

10) what is your favorite unreal form of currency?
cathair. that unfortunately isn't a form of currency yet. otherwise i'd be filthy rich. ^^

11) would you rather deal with robots/androids or living beings?
if living beings means humans, then i'd rather deal with robots. otherwise living beings, i guess.

12) what form of undead creature would you like to be?
a ghost. a real nasty poltergeist, at that.

13) would you take eternity as a ghost in the living world or would you go into the light?
eternity as a ghost, of course! what's the fun in going into the light, anyways? o_O

14) what is your favorite unreal language?
i'd have to say elvish. it's very pretty. ^^

15) what is your favorite unreal humanoid race?
i guess elves. they're woodland creatures and they have that sort of inconceivable beauty about them.

16) do you have a bias against creatures with pointy ears?
i dunno. not really.

17) do you long for the future, or a return to the past?
toughie. on the other hand living in the past would be intriguing, but there were all sorts of nasty stuff going on back then. the future on the other hand doesn't look so bright if we keep going at the pace we are now, but it would be cool to see space colonies and mechas as reality. so i guess either really far ahead in the future or really far back in the past would be cool. i can't decide.

18) what is your favorite period in our reality's history?
ngh. i dunno. maybe the medieval times, like 1300-1400's. don't ask me why.

19) what means of unreal transportation would you most prefer?
do mechas count as transportation as well, or are they just for fighting? o_O

20) would you want to have wings? if so, what would they look like?
damn right i would. i would have the kind black waltz 03 has in final fantasy ix: big, black and beautiful. ^^

21) what would you arm yourself with?
probably a sword or a large bow.

22) what is your favorite magical spell?
THUNDERSTORM! *kwahahaa!*

23) would you rather have only one hand, one eye, or one foot?
one eye.

24) would you be a creature of the air, the earth, or the sea?
since fire isn't an option, probably a creature of the air.

25) would you enjoy being an immortal creature? Why/why not?
sure, why not. meaning immortal as in not dying of old age, but still being killable. being unable to die at all would just plain suck.


7th october 2002

feeling: blue
listening to: nothing

see, sis! people like j00 and your art. ^^ *still chuckling over microgirl's first comment*

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there is a god after all! ^o^ *dances around jehuty*
no kidding, sis? really? and who might that be? ;P

once again i am proven right. i've always thought that you should never expect anything to turn out well or get your hopes up over things. that way you'll be less disappointed when you end up with nothing. it may sound dreadfully pessimistic, but thinking like that has saved from many heartaches and still continues to do so. like with my physics exam today. i told you that i thought i did pretty well on it, right? well, i was wrong. it went exactly the way i suspected it would go: i think i do well, but in reality mess up in the worst possible way. i guess you can figure out that my exam didn't go very well. i got 6 as my grade, and those of you who are familiar with the finnish grading system will know exactly why. i don't know what 6 is on the american grading system, but 4 would be the same as F, i think. you do the math. anyway, i'm tired of twiddling this around in my head. i knew i would screw up, and i did. end of story. thankfully the rest of my exams have gone pretty well so far, with the exception of swedish. i screwed myself over in that one, as well. i still have one grade to get, and that's my geography grade. i pray to ada that i did well on the exam, because it's the only one i truly care about.

i just want to go home and get some sleep. i also want to finish my new layout and start working on some fan fics i have in mind (which no doubt will result in being even more lousy than my mugetsu fan fic). anything but being in school. x_X


4th october 2002

feeling: a bit dipsy
listening to: tekken 4 gaming sounds. yet again. :P

friday five:

1. What size shoe do you wear?
8 1/2 to 9 us, 7 1/2 uk, 41 european.

2. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
6 that i actually use. my black suede boots, celtics sneakers, nike sneakers, zori (a type of japanese sandals), strap sandals, my black high-heeled, thick-soled walking shoes.

3. What type of shoe do you prefer (boots, sneakers, pumps, etc.)?
boots.

4. Describe your favorite pair of shoes. Why are they your favorite?
my black suede boots, because they're comfortable and stable.

5. What's the most you've spent on one pair of shoes?
i dunno. mom usually finances my shoe-buyings... o_O

inanna, i completely know how you feel. but at least you've got skill at drawing as well! i, on the other hand, am a total loser when it comes to drawing. ~_~

tee hee, riikka put up the word 'jehuty' on google, trying to find the origins for the name (seeing as the names anubis, neith and nephtis are all of egyptian origins), and she came up with my blog! silly, eh? eh? eh...? *sweatdrop*
bleh, i'm probably the only one who actually finds that amusing. ~_~'

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feeling: tired
listening to: humming of the computers

we're supposed to watch an english film without finnish subs on our english class and then write a review on it. we got to choose the movie, well, to some extent anyways. i tried suggesting tim burton's nightmare before christmas, but the teacher wouldn't have it. she apparently thought the movie was a bit stupid when i explained the basic idea of it for her (she had never even heard of nmbc! :O). she insisted that we watch as good as it gets instead. right, as if that was better than nmbc. ¬_¬

sometimes i just hate my art classes, or to be exact, my photography classes. i heard from our english teacher that there's a staff meeting today starting at 1pm, and that no classes starting after 1pm won't be held. though there will always be teachers who won't take part in the staff meeting but who will hold the classes anyways. like my art teacher. i hear she's like the only teacher who is insisting on holding the class from 1pm to 3pm, even though no other teacher in the school is doing that. our group of 20 people will probably be the only ones at school then. suckage. no sir, i wouldn't even have wanted to go home two hours early on friday. what makes you think i would've? *rolleyes*

i want a new layout. have i said that already?


2nd october 2002

feeling: headachy and tired
listening to: tekken 4 gaming sounds

wo-hoo, tekken 4 kicks mucho arse! it takes some time to get used to all the new things (damn the new crouch!), but i'm definitely enjoying it. though it does have its flaws. for example, the new sidestep is inferior to the sidestep in ttt and not being able to jump backwards totally reeks. they even removed yoshimitsu's backflip, and i don't think i'll ever be able to forgive that.

awww, thank you! ^^ i'm glad you like our blogs. the credit for the layouts is mostly due to riikka, though, since i have forgotten nearly everything i ever knew about html-coding and i'm pretty much clueless when it comes to using psp or photoshop. i'm learning, though. in fact, i think i'm gonna start working on a new layout in the near future. ^_^

ick. it's almost 7pm and i still haven't done my homework. pathetic, ya? seeing as i decided that on this period i'm actually going to do something to earn better grades, especially with physics. figures. :/