30th july 2002

feeling: tired and anxious
listening to: final fantasy; love will grow - prelude

i guess it's high time i realize there's no escaping the fact that there's only two weeks of summer holiday left. my school books for this year arrived yesterday, and though they all look pretty interesting (with the exception of my swedish books. they never looks interesting. i hate swedish.), i'd prefer never having to actually use them. the resentment i'm feeling towards school is worse than it's ever been so far, and i don't even know why. this year isn't supposed to be that bad either, i've got loads of cool stuff coming up that i wouldn't want to miss. i guess i'm just afraid of going back to school because that means taking part in the re-writes i signed up for after screwing myself up during my physics exam. and having only two weeks left of my holiday means i should start revising for it, and i don't want to. i don't think i've ever felt this anxious about a single exam. it's probably because subconsciously i know i'm not going to do any better this time around... suck! ><

*bangs head against the monitor*
i think i'm just gonna go and try to finish my mugetsu fic. i'm going to come up with a decent ending even if it kills me!


24th july 2002

feeling: sleepy and headachy
listening to: heart of air - lullaby of dolores

riikka has a swanky new layout up. p-head-butt so cool. ^^

it's raining. again. nothing wrong with rain, but when it happens every day and all day, it becomes slightly annoying. i miss the sun. rain makes the house all gloomy and me sleepy. x_X

what am i doing wrong? i've done like 170+ hours in ffx and my sphere grid is still not complete. i think i should've just done the "real" stat maxing instead levelling up on random encounters only. but i think it's much more fun this way. i'm having so much fun anyways that i wouldn't even want to finish the game yet. now that i finally beat the damn chocobo racing, i'm damn well gonna enjoy having tidus' ultimate weapon. i still need to get lulu's venus sigil, but i'll be damned if i'm gonna start dodging 200 lightnings! i actually managed to get to something like 70, but then i got hit. figures. ¬_¬ i don't know what abilities the onion knight has, but since i've got the 'break damage limit' -ability on another weapon, it doesn't really matter if i get it or not. dodging them lightnings is such a pain in the butt that i think i'm just gonna skip it all together.

i hate 'bribe'. not that i've used it much, but the little i've tried is enough to annoy me. it's so unreliable. one time i lost over 600 000gil because my 'bribe' missed. it was infuriating. not because 600 000gil is a lot of money (which it actually isn't), but because it wasn't supposed to miss and i hadn't saved my game in a long time before that. now i'm trying to bribe malboros into giving me 'wings of discovery', but the process is slow as heck. i need at least 30, and they're giving me 2 or 3 at a time. suck. ><

you know what's amusing? how people think getting yojimbo to do 'zanmato' is such a hard thing to do, but in reality it's not hard at all. you don't need to pay him a million+ gil, at least i don't. heck, he pulls 'zanmato' all the time for me, often even before i have the chace to pay him a dime. *pokes yojimbo*

must play zoe this weekend. ^^

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A GREEN Dragon Lies Beneath!
I took the Inner Dragon online quiz and found out I am a Green Dragon on the inside. My Inner Dragon is the embodiment of Nature and the Earth. Greens spend almost all of their time below the canopy or just above the treetops in tropical rain forests. Not a bad life considering every other creature in the forest looks up to me, figuratively and literally. I speak the language of every animal and plant in my domain and know most of them by first name. If people mess with my forests, I'm more than happy to wail on their puny butts. Because of my protector/caretaker role, I am the Earth Elemental dragon.

Naturally my whole life pretty much revolves around the other couple million species I keep an eye on, but that's not my whole dragon. I also like to like to impose my steadfast will on others, commune with Nature, and lobby governments for alternative fuels and conservation. My favorable attributes are Midnight, Winter, gemstones, mountains, caves, soil, respect, endurance, responsibility, prosperity, and purpose in life. Folks shouldn't get the idea I'm a hippy pushover though, because my breath weapon is a nasty Fire/Acid combination. Maybe I should invest in a hemp shirt reading "Don't knock my smock, or I'll clean your clock." *wink*


20th july 2002

feeling: guud
listening to: visions of escaflowne - dance of curse

whee! a new layout! thanks a huge bunch for riikka. :china: i really like this layout (even though it's got picky tables. damn j00 sis! XD) and it's about time i had a darker layout to my blog. and what could be better subject than ringwraiths (well, one's hand anyway). ^^

did i mention getting an auron action figure? i don't think i did... well, here it is. ain't it swanky? i <3 it very dearly. it's so big and the sword is so heavy that it's constantly tilting backwards. i had to put some blu-tack under his shoes to stop him from falling down. i still haven't thought of a safe place for it. :P oh, and i also got this. how 1337 is that? ^_~

i'm in a desperate need of writing my mugetsu fic, but i can't think of anything to write. i thought i had some pretty good ideas for it, but apparently i didn't. or perhaps i just suck at writing so much that i can't put them into logical paragraphs. even the ending i had in mind is starting to sound lame in my own ears. ~~'

omega ruins are scary. oO'

i was thinking on actually writing something of a real rant, but i think i'm too lazy to actually do it now. it was a stupid subject anyhow, something only i could rant about. maybe i'll do it next time. i should be browsing for school books now anyways. geez, there's still like a month of summerholiday left, and i'm already forced to start thinking about school. i should start buying books and stuff like that if i wanna make sure i have them all by the time school starts, plus i should start studying for my physics re-writes. blah. school sucks and i don't wanna go back there. i just want to sit at home playing videogames and surfing the web, maybe going to work every now and then at the local arcade or something like that. i'm pathetic, i know... x.X


18th july 2002

feeling: cheery
listening to: sr2 gaming sounds

COMPUTER! *smooches*
finally we got our comp back and, surprisingly enough, it also appears to be working. it feels odd and at the same time damn good to be back on the computer and surfing the web. i gotta tell you, i was almost afraid of checking my email after two months. but luckily there were only 14 new mails, most of them junk. so it wasn't so bad after all. but replying to those that actually were important emails took quite a while, seeing as i had a few mails to answer from the time before our comp broke down. i still haven't dared to start reading all the blogs and online comics i've missed during these pass few months. x_X

hmmm. a change of layout is long overdue, i'd say. i actually meant to do it a lot earlier, but with a broken computer and all...well, y'know. i still haven't decided what my new layout is gonna feature, but it'll probably be a bit darker and more gloomy than my previous layouts. i just need to get around to actually doing it (read: make my little sister to do all the html-work :P).

KAIN! ^^

kweh. there's so much to talk about, though not much has happened to me as of late. i've played loads of ff10 and read some dante. i've seen some cool movies and am in a desperate need of money so i can buy more action figures, dvds and videogames. gah. ><

btw...what's wrong with AG? oO


28th june 2002

feeling: tired and out of breath
listening to: nothing

whew...i travelled 60km just to make this entry, so that my account wouldn't be removed. so, here i am. and now i'm gonna go see if i by some miracle could find Dante's Divine Comedy in our crappy library...

btw...auron 0wnz. ^^