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31st May 2003
feeling: a touch sleepy
listening to: Kingdom Hearts game sounds
Sleep is for luserzzzz... Z_Z
I doubt anyone can help me with this, but I'm asking anyway:
would anyone happen to know what the song played in Naruto
during ep 34 when Gaara argues with Kankuro is called, and where
I could find it, if anywhere? The song is spiffy. Gaara is
spiffy. It works! :D
30th May 2003
feeling: barfy from eating too much
listening to: Kingdom Hearts game sounds
Phantom = teh über l33t! <3 <3
I don't ever want to see another slice of pizza again! Until
next time, anyway. We went to Pizza Rax with mom and
Chiko-Chiko today. It's
a place where you can eat pizza, salad, vegetables and ice cream
as much as your stomach can take. I have a bad habit of always
eating way too much when we go there, and I never seem to learn
to stop before I'm ready explode. Today was no exception. I ate
four slices of pizza, five chicken wings, a plate full of
vegetables and two cones of ice cream, and now I'm just about
ready to throw up. Go me. T_T
28th May 2003
feeling: BOUNCYYY~~
listening to: Naruto - Haruka Kanata
GAAAARAAAA! Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara Gaara
Gaaaaaraaaaaaa~~!!
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
Ahem.
GAAAAAAARAAAAA! *boing boing boing boing*
Tee hee, Kankuro said "our Gaara". Cuuuuuute! :3 :3 :3
--
feeling: tired
listening to: Visions Of Escaflowne - Perfect World
Expected today: crankiness and air-headness. I am extremely tired
this morning, my head is woozy and there's something wrong with
my eyesight. I keep seeing dots and smudges dancing at the edge
my eyes, and at times I even get the blurring of vision I only
get with migranes. I also feel rather barfy due to being hungry,
but at the moment I can't make myself eat anything. It feels like
there's a knot in my stomach. :/
Also, while being on the subject of food. I am never going to eat
hamburgers again. They make my stomach turn cartwheels and give
me the nastiest diarrhoea ever. :[
Saw Silent Hill 3 at a department store yesterday. Mom still
hasn't been able to get it for us, and all that's left of my
money is 5 euros. Not much for buying games, ne. I also found
another game that caught my eye: The Sims Deluxe Version for PC.
Yay. Funny how some things you see on the 'net can turn you from
disliking something intensely to loving it. I can't wait to get
my hands on that game. ^_^ Chiko-Chiko says I'm a baka. I think she has
a point. But heck if I can help being a pervert. :D :D
Besides, she likes the idea, too. I know you do, sis!
Apparently there's something wrong with Tag-Board, because none
of our boards are working. Figures. No more spamming for a while,
guys. ;]
This makes me go "WHEEE!". :) Motivation, y0.
I'm so going to finish upper secondary school, get accepted in the
University of Helsinki and boing off to Japan. You just watch me.
:)
Fear the Copy & Paste job. Anyway, this had me smiling:
"After a month's study, comprising two weeks for Hiragana and
two weeks for Katakana, a qualification trial is held. The
curriculum is very demanding in respect to the Kanjis. It is,
indeed, almost impossible to master the set of Tofiyofi Kanji in
four years with tuition only 2-4 hours a week -- "
I'm already thinking I have nothing to fear. Okay, so I can't
read a single character of Hiragana yet, but I'm totally getting
better at reading Katakana. Granted, I don't know enough Japanese to
survive two hours in Japan and that undoubtedly limits the things
I can read in Katakana, but if I know enough characters to fumble
my way around on the internet (*cough*) now, I should be more
than okay once something like that actually comes my way in
university. w00t! :)
Something about the Chakra Test is still bothering me slightly,
and I'm going to take a moment to address it. As can be seen
from my posted results, most of my charkras seem to be blocked.
My Heart-chakra (see introduction to chakras here) is majorly under-active, as are
most of my other chakras, as well. That makes me wonder a bit.
I don't feel at home in situations or tend to be passive in
groups. I am not at all open to people I don't know and am in
fact rather stiff in some cases. That's because my chakras are
blocked, right? Otherwise I'd fit in perfectly. Ooookay... So a
"normal" human being is one who likes being in groups and is
compassionate and friendly. Certainly a person like that is not
shy or introverted. Showering people with affection comes
naturally and being aggressive is a major no-no.
What the...?
Since when was it not okay to like your own company better than
that of others, or not to be the one to talk their heads off at
social gatherings, that is if you ever even attend one? When
was not being a team player ever a crime? Who's to say there's
something wrong with me if I indeed shy away from people and
even dislike most of them by default?
Yes, I know I'm probably over-reacting to this, but this is just
something I had to get out of my system. Not everyone likes
being in groups or get swept head-over-heels by love. But that
doesn't make them abnormal. Did it ever occur to anyone that
some people simply ARE like that and it isn't because there's
something funny going on with their chakras? I can despise
people, hate being in groups, hide my emotions and STILL BE
NORMAL.
There. I said it. Now I shall go to take my meds.
26th May 2003
feeling: alright
listening to: Spirited Away - Samishii Samishii
Don't you just hate when your computer decides go mental right
in the middle of a long-ass entry? >.>
Anyway, I'm not going to re-write it all, so this is going to be
a slightly edited version, consisting of the things I can be
bothered to remember from the vanished version.
As you can probably notice for yourself, I, too, have a new
layout up. So say hello to the awesome cat twins Naria and Eriya
from Visions Of Escaflowne. Personally I like this layout very
much, so it's probably going to stick around for a while. :3
The Chakra Test, stolen from
Inanna:
Root: under-active (-50%)
Sacral: under-active (-75%)
Navel: under-active (-38%)
Heart: under-active (-81%) -- Whoa!
Throat: open (31%)
Third Eye: open (38%)
Crown: under-active (6%)
That basically means I am fearful and nervous, stiff and not very
open to people, passive and indecisive, cold and distant,
creative and don't have problems expressing myself, have a good
intuition and tend to fantasize, am rigid in my thinking and am
not aware of spirituality. It seems I am rather blocked, ne? I
was suprised by the major under-activeness of my heart chakra,
though. :/
This is to say I'm a negative person, isn't it?
Going to see Matrix Reloaded tomorrow with Chiko-Chiko. Yay. Too bad mom can't join us.
Maybe next time, ne. :3
I'm hoping mom will bring us Silent Hill 3 when she comes home.
Can't wait to play it. Yes, it will scare the living daylights
out of me, but I'm a masochist. So sue me. XP
23rd May 2003
feeling: alright, somewhat hungry
listening to: computers humming, people typing
Sitting on a computer at mom's job, waiting to get a heads-up
from Minna, so
we can finally go see her puppy. Heck, if we wait much longer to
see it, she's not going to be a puppy anymore. >.>
At about 1pm or so we're going to hitch a ride home from dad
while he drops our step-sister to spend the weekend at ours.
During the weekend we're going to bake things called spring rolls
(or something of the like) and "outdoor train" our flowers. That
means we take them outside for the day and drag them back inside
for the night. That way they'll get used to the colder weather
outdoors. Hopefully, anyway. It's going to be rather interesting,
seeing how many pots and plants we have. :/
We sold some of our old CDs today and now we have the money to
see Matrix Reloaded. It felt slightly cheap, though. We gave them
at least 15 CDs and got only 20 euros for them. I even tried to
get the saleswoman to pay us more, but she wouldn't have it. Oh
well, it's not such a big loss. I never really listened to those
things anymore, anyway.
We saw Silent Hill 3 in the shelf while selling those CDs. Too
bad we can't afford to buy it. Where the heck am I going to come
up with 70 euros all of a sudden?
Speaking of which, I still haven't heard anything from the
Homeless Cats and my job as a trainee. I wish they would contact
me soon, so I would know if I got the job or not. I hate living
in uncertainty.
I met with my shrink at 9am this morning. I'm probably going on
new meds because of the anxiety attacks and suicidal thoughts I
get when I'm really down. If the situation continues to be like
this in my head, or gets worse, I might get admitted to a hospital
or something of the like. Whee. It's good to be me. She also told
me to meet with our study councelor to talk about how I'm going
to handle school once I feel up to it again. According to her,
it would make me feel better to get that out of the way, so I
wouldn't have to worry about it anymore. She's right, I know,
but I find a little hard to go there, having failed to stay in
school AGAIN.
I'm ranting. I'll shut up now.
21st May 2003
feeling: accomplished
listening to: Kingdom Hearts game sounds
GAAAARAAA~~!! *boing boing boing*
Finally managed to finish and put up my writings. Took me the
whole bloody day, too. The site is accompanying our Black Waltz
shrine under UNIT (or as it's usually called, OWNED). Hope you
enjoy. :)
Stolen from Chiko-Chiko:
1. Your favourite games:
Zone Of The Enders, Final Fantasy, Tekken, Legacy Of Kain,
Silent Hill 2, The Bouncer, Devil May Cry, Metal Gear Solid
2. Worst games:
Most sports games, In Cold Blood, most FPS-games.
3. Games that deserve more credit:
Definitely Zone Of The Enders and The Bouncer.
4. Games that deserve less credit:
Sports games. Geez, those are everywhere.
5. A game that made you laugh:
Every game I've ever played has made me laugh, either due to its
own credit or just because I'm a twit.
6. Games that made you cry:
Zone Of The Enders, Final Fantasy 10 (WAAAH!), Final Fantasy 9.
7. Things you'd like to happen in games:
Braska's Journey! Black Waltzes being a summon, Jehuty not
self-destructing, Pyramid Head showing up in SH3. That's all I
can think off the top of my head.
8. Favourite quotes:
"This is what I live for. This is the purpose of living for those
who have no life." -- ADA
"Now there's a scene for posterity!" -- Young Auron
...Bloody hell, why can't I come up with anything! >_<
9. Hated quotes:
Pretty much everything Seymour says. And the things Sion says
make me cringe.
10. Point of this:
I dunno. I'm bored out of my skull? >.>
19th May 2003
feeling: somewhat hungry
listening to: Wamdue Project - King Of My Castle
Yes, I know I haven't blogged much lately. I simply don't have
anything intelligent to say. You aren't exactly over-flowing
with things to talk about when every day is the same: get up,
take my meds, check blogs and answer e-mails, wait for Chiko-Chiko to wake up, get off the comp and
get some breakfast, knit knit knit, wait for mom to come home,
eat, knit knit knit, watch telly and knit, take a sleeping pill
and go to bed. Occasionally I go to the town for a dentist's
appointment or to meet with my shrink, but no one's interested
in that. :/
I'm going to the hospital for a blood test tomorrow. They'll
check if I'm lactose-intolerant or allergic to milk - once again.
The test is at 7:30am. Argh. I have to go 12 hours without
eating before it, so I have to stop eating at 7pm today. I
can't even have breakfast in the morning. :[ I also have to pee
in a jar in the morning. Jealous yet? XP
Now I shall go to wake up Chiko-Chiko, have some breakfast and
play some Blood Omen 2. Mmmm... Kain x Faustus... :D~~ After that, I'll
finish the obi-kind-of belt for the cardigan I've been knitting
for myself for the past week and then make mom sew the whole
thing together when she comes home. Then I only need to get some
buttons for it, and it's finished. Go me and my evil plans.
15th May 2003
feeling: ...life's gonna suck when you grow up
listening to: Final Fantasy 6 - Terra Forever (G.M.F Mix)
Blah. I wanted to give parachuting a go, because I want to have
a swanky hobby, but a beginner's course costs 400 euros! Tandem
would cost less (about half less, really), but I don't want to
be tied to a stranger with a harness, much less be at the mercy
of one during a 3000 meter fall. s00k. Why must everything
that is fun be so expensive? D:
--
feeling: EEP! O_O
listening to: Final Fantasy 10 - Suteki Da Ne (Orchestrated)
Haha, lol. This is bloody hilarious! I got it in an
e-mail from a friend, and though I have seen it before (as
have most of you, I'm sure), it's still worth a mention. Had me
laughing 10 minutes straight. I know, I'm stupid. XP
Anyway, the idea is to find a ghost in the picture. It's pretty
hard to find, but it's there. Consentrate on the table area, it's
much easier to find that way. Be sure to turn UP the volume
on your speakers to hear the background music. Otherwise it's no
fun. :) And be patient, you'll spot it eventually. It took me
about three minutes, as well. Don't give up. ^_~
I signed up for voluntary oil-cleaning corps for Finnish WWF
today. *proud* Basically it's about having people ready to come
and clean up with a short notice, should there be a major oil
catastrophe on the Baltic Sea. Hopefully I will never get called
into action, though, but I'm very happy about having signed up.
I've always wanted to be a part of a major oil-cleaning operation.
I'd imagine it gives a massive sense of satisfaction, hard and
nasty work though it may be. :)
I have an appointment with a doctor today, to get the prescription
for my contraseptive pills renewed. Argh. I'm going to ask her
about my chances of getting a sterilization or a hysterectomy
done. She'd better let me have one. For Yevons sake, I'm 19
already. You'd think I have the right to decided whether I want
to ever have kids or not, and alter my body accordingly. No way
am I going suffer menstruation for nothing. :/ Hopefully I won't
have to go through any tests or examinations. I hate those.
*laughs until she cries* This is friggin' twisted! Awesome, man.
Someone get me The Sims. XD XD XD *falls off the chair*
12th May 2003
feeling: fine
listening to: Spirited Away - Itsumo Nando Demo
I'm feeling strangely energetic today. I think it's the sunny
weather. It almost looks like you you could sunbathe out there.
But maybe not quite. I don't want to catch a pneumonia. :/
Mom asked us to vacuum the house and take the cats out for a
sniff today, while she's at work. I actually might do that, for
once. At least taking the cats out part. I wouldn't actually
mind standing out there for a few hours, getting my dose of the
warm sunlights. Chiko-Chiko
did say I looked pale yesterday, so it's not going to be harmful
to me at any rate. If only the silly buggers wouldn't constantly
try to go in different directions. >_<
I want to have a Mystique layout once Adam gets bored of having
people stare at him. Too bad it's so hard to find decent pics of
her, at least according to Chiko-Chiko. p00. Mystique is brilliant
and I want be like her when I grow up. Pretty ass-kicking
lady. ^_^
I thought I'd do some writing today, but suddenly I don't feel
like it. Every time I drag my butt on the comp to get to work,
all my ideas just vanish into thin air and I don't feel like
writing anything at all. But whenever I'm not on the computer,
my mind is filled with stories and/or ideas for stories that
simply scream to be written. But open a writing program and POOF!
Gone. Kweh. :/
I am a Doberman!
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Yup, stupid huge banners. Amazingly, that's actually rather
accurate.
8th May 2003
feeling: bored
listening to: Final Fantasy 9 - Black Magic Synthesis OC ReMix
Figures. Chiko-Chiko is
gone for an hour and I'm going insane with boredom. I wonder how
I'm supposed to survive without my sis when I eventually have to
move out, as it will most likely be before she does. Hn. :/
I tried to write, but couldn't come up with anything coherent.
Figures that when I for once have something of a storyline
thought out, I can't put it into words. Typical. *bangs head
against the keyboard*
I want mah sissy. :(
--
feeling: woozy
listening to: Final Fantasy 10 - Ending Theme
This stupid song is making me cry. Stupid Square for making the
ending so sad, and stupid Jecht and Auron for being so infernally
cute. ;_;
I really need to write some yaoi today.
Feeling slightly air-headed seems to be a constant thing for me
these days. Something is killing off my already non-existent
braincells. :/
From Yahoo! Astrology:
You are intelligent and practical, very likely to have a good
memory and the ability to make and follow plans. Leadership
skills are among your useful traits.
At times, you may tend to be overly sensitive to criticism. You
can be excessively cautious or narrow in your outlook unless you
receive the right kind of encouragement.
You are a warm hearted person, with much love to give.
There may be times in your life when you give in to feelings of
sadness or depression.
You are likely to make decisions based on intuition or feelings
rather than intellect. You do have the capability to detach
yourself emotionally and look at situations objectively, but you
may not have developed this trait as well as you should.
You are naturally charming and inclined to be flirtatious.
There are inconsistencies in your energy level, possibly
triggered by external factors or emotional changes.
You have a basically strong constitution, and should enjoy good
health most of the time.
You are likely to make many changes in the direction of your
life. This may be based on interruptions due to health problems,
or it may be that you just have trouble focusing your energy.
There is a strong intuitive side to your nature, which may border
on psychic or mystical ability.
It truly is amazing what you can stumble into when you're just
bumming around. It's true for the most part, as well. Except
that I am not at all a flirtatious person. At least on a
conscious level. The part about being overly sensitive to
criticism is right on the money, though.
Can't think of anything intelligent to blog about. Too emotinal.
Stupid FF10.
6th May 2003
feeling: sleepy-ish
listening to: Wizards & Warriors III game sounds. Still.
I spent over 100 euros today. And no, I can't really afford to
spend amounts like that in one day, but since it went on good stuff,
it's all worth it. Got mom a Mother's Day present (shhhh, that's
still a secret! ;P) and some other stuff, namely my Tenkuu no
Escaflowne artbook by Sunrise. Major coolness. It's got some
awesome scetches of all the characters both in the series and the
movie, including Escaflowne, Alseides and Scherazade, naturally.
Naria and Eriya so cool. :)
And would you just LOOK at this! Sure makes my eyes buldge out in
happiness. :D~~
I thought I was supposed to say something else, too, but I forgot
what it was. Hn. :/
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I am...? I mean, of course I am. LoL. XD
--
feeling: headachy
listening to: Wizards & Warriors III game sounds
I have a dentist's appointment in about an hour. Major blahness.
After that we should go look for a Mother's Day present with
Chiko-Chiko. But that's
a secret, so shhhh! Forget I said anything. ^_~
LOL! The old NES games are hilarious if you have as twisted sense
of humor as we do. XD And just as a sidenote, you can spot quite
a few funny things in Matrix, if your mind is as yaoi-infected as
ours. ;D
5th May 2003
feeling: tired
listening to: Beethoven - Ode To Joy (Techno Mix)
Okay, yes, I like changing layouts. At least I still don't do it
as often as Chiko-Chiko
does. :P I'm probably going to get nagged at for the background
being black and the whole thing being hard to read. Well, too
bad. Adam is just too damn kawaii not to be used for a layout.
Hopefully he won't freak people out, the swanky thing. :3
Figures Minna was
right - pink layouts really aren't my thing. :/
My sleeping pills make me groggy. Every time I take one in the
evening to sleep properly during the night, I end up being really
sleepy and air-headed for the whole next day. It gives me a
headache, too. >.<
We tried to come up with a name for our new kitten yesterday. We
haven't even gotten her yet, but figured it would be a good idea
to have some names ready when we do get her. We came up with all
sorts of nice names, but still couldn't decide on anything, as
we haven't even seen her yet. Actually, we don't even know when
we're going to get her, since there has been no word from the
Homeless Cats. Gah, people are hoarding their kittens to
themselves and are not letting us have any. Of course it is a
comforting idea that the place is not flooding with kittens,
because that would mean people are just dumping them somewhere.
Still, I am REALLY looking forward to getting a third cat, so I
wish they would hurry up.
I kind of like the name "Rei". No-one liked the suggestion to
call her "Lucifer". Silly god-fearing people. XP
4th May 2003
feeling: argh
listening to: Little Samson game sounds
Tried to do some writing and found I couldn't get anything done.
I've lost my yaoi-writing feeling. And everything else, too,
while we're at it. I want to write so badly that I'm almost
thinking of forcing it out, but that never did any good to
anyone, so maybe not. This is just a temporary writer's block,
right? I will be able to write again soon, won't I?
Finished Reaper Man in one go yesterday. Death is a riot. XD I
so totally need to read more of Mr Pratchett's stuff.
--
feeling: bored
listening to: Heart Of Air - Dream Of Glass
Heart Of Air's songs make me smile. :)
Not much to blog about. Just feeling majorly bored today. It's
gloomy and rainy, and it was sleeting earlier. Not much of a
weather to lift one's spirits, ne? Chiko-Chiko is still sleeping, despite the
fact that it's well past 1pm already. That's what she gets for
staying up 'til 4am every night. Though I suppose it doesn't
really matter how late you sleep on the weekends when every day
is a day off. Wish it was like that for me, as well. :/
Still haven't heard anything from the Homeless Cats, regarding
my job or the kittens. I hope they'll get in touch soon, so I
can plan the rest of my summer accordingly. I really do want that
job, you know.
2nd May 2003
feeling: OWWWW! >_<
listening to: Heart Of Air - Blue Flow
Menstruation is evil. EVIL, I tells you! I will so get a
hysterectomy or something of the like done the minute I possibly
can. Oww... *dies*
X-Men 2 was wicked. A sure-fire way to get yourself to feel
inferior. X_X Mystique was VERY kickass and Magneto simply rocked
(most likely because he was played by Ian McKellen - that guy is
awesome!). And I was totally scraping my jaw off the floor when
Storm called forth those tornados. Mad cool, gurl, mad cool. And
of course this wouldn't be my blog if I didn't swoon over someone,
so here we go: I'm Wolverine's bitch for real! Big hairy musceled
manly man - mmmm, yummy. That skin-tight X-Men leather outfit of
his simply screams "fan service"! :D~ Why Jean would chose
Cyclops over Wolverine is totally beyond me. Cyclops is so boring
and edgeless and so totally blah. I would take Wolverine over him
any day of the week! Yeah, baby! :D~~
Can't wait to see Shanghai Knights and Matrix Reloaded.
--
feeling: hungry
listening to: Vanessa-Mae - I Feel Love
Suddenly got a very sore throat from out of nowhere. Swallowing
hurts. Nasty. ;_;
I can't even remember the last time I wrote fanfiction. It must
have been around the time I last finished FF10, so my guess is
that it has been more than a month. I feel seriously deprived.
You never know how hooked you are on something until you have to
live without it. I'm talking about both writing AND yaoi. :)
BTW Maccie, got your pressie from the postoffice
the other day. Thank you very much, it was lovely. I <3 the
card. :)
It's 12:30pm and Chiko-Chiko
is still sleeping. I'm going to have to drag her out of bed
forcefully soon if we're going to make it to the postoffice
before X-Men tonight. Lazy bum of a sister. XD
--
feeling: somewhat sleepy
listening to: Final Fantasy 10 - Suteki Da Ne (Off-Vocal)
Feeling a bit better today. The constant feeling of needing to
go and jump off a roof is gone for the most part, though I still
get sucked in by random moments of utter misery. Feeling rather
apprehensive about going to school tomorrow (yes, we have to go
to school on Saturday for getting May Day off), because I've
screwed everything up so royally. I am not at all confident that
the teachers will let me participate in the courses anymore, and
if they don't, I don't know what to do. There's a small chance
of doing them in evening school next year, but that would mean
I'd have to do them along regular school and I'm not sure I have
the strength for that. All I know that I want to graduate from
upper secondary school, and preferably as soon as possible. The
idea of not being able to do that is making my skin crawl,
because I am practically defining my existance through success
in school. I just hope things will work out, one way or the
other.
I slept strangely poorly last night and feel rather brain dead at
the moment. x_o I didn't celebrate May Day, mostly because my
hangovers have gotten really nasty lately and I have absolutely
no desire to spend the day with my face down the toiletbowl. I'm
also a little hesitant to use alcohol while I'm on
anti-depressants, because I'm not sure if it's okay or not.
Besides, I don't have that much interest in getting drunk
anymore. Chiko-Chiko says
it means I'm growing up. Figures. XP
Been playing Devil May Cry 2 most of the week. There's pretty
much no storyline to talk about, but the action is cool
nonetheless. Lucia is pretty kickass and she looks mad pretty in
her Devil Trigger. I dislike her voice, though. As for Dante...
I think "major droolage" pretty much says it all.
Mmmm...skin-tight pants... :fangirl: How he managed to fit
himself in those eyecandy-pants is anybody's guess. Too bad his
trench coat covers his butt. ;D~
I should stop before I'll droll myself to death. BTW, Dante looks
wicked in Diesel. ;)
We should visit the postoffice again today. It's positively going
to kill me. I don't think I've ever been as out of breath as I was the
last time Chiko-Chiko and
I went there. Hauling her on the rack of my bike with my lousy
physical condition and walking up the craziest uphill I've ever
seen while dragging the heavy-as-heck bike along is not my idea
of fun. We should hitch a ride from our aunt, but I'm too
embarrassed to ask. X_X
We're going to see X-Men 2 tonight. Yay. :)
There are bullfinches on our backyard. My favourite kind of small
birds. :) On a sidenote, there are birds visiting our bird feeder
that I've never seen in my entire life. And I've seen and am
able to recognize quite a few. 'tis funky. :/
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