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30th January 2004
feeling: hungry
listening to: 'From Hell'
Nee hee hee, Johnny Depp is gorgeous enough to eat. :D~
Dishes next. After that some food (hopefully), a shower and then
off to a rave with Minna. Boogie.
28th January 2004
feeling: barfy
listening to: 'Without A Trace' on TV
Not to sound vain, but god my bangs bother me. My whole mess of
hair bothers me. It makes me look untidy and ugly, and I want to
go chop-chop-chop on it like mad. Meh. Growing one's hair out sure
is a tedious job.
I want to do something fun in the summer. Fun as in something
similar to our trip to Ireland last July. Yes, I want to travel,
preferably together with Chiko-Chiko. Any suggestions?
Inanna, you people wouldn't want to have us
over as a nuisance again, would you? ;)
26th January 2004
feeling: bored
listening to: Fullmetal Alchemist - Kesenai Tsumi
I got the fifth volume of The Blue Planet sea documentary.
I haven't watched a single one of them yet. Should take the time
and sit through all five volums some day. I love National
Geographic's nature documentaries. <3
Got nothing to do. I think I'll go read some more Chocolat.
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feeling: amused
listening to: Fullmetal Alchemist - Kesenai Tsumi
I've read too much Chocolat. XP
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feeling: woozy
listening to: Fullmetal Alchemist - Kesenai Tsumi
I can't communicate with my muses anymore. They simply refuse to
have a decent dialogue with me. Or actually, make that any kind
of dialogue while we're at it; it's really more of a monologue
that they're doing. Otsune, for one, has been exceptionally
loud lately. Especially in the nighttime. There's an endless
flow of babble from her direction, drabble material mostly: her
fooling around with Yuji (her little brother) until her knees
buckle from fatique, drinking gallons of sake with Soichiro (her
big brother) until he (yes, HE) passes out, sparring,
battles, girl talk with friends...anything and everything. Lately
she has even started going on about boys and (Lilith help me T_T)
toying with the idea of a boyfriend. I've told her numerous
times that I refuse to go there, to which she replies that she
knows that perfectly well and that it's not even a serious idea,
but yet it always ends with her telling me: "but imagine how much
fun it would be to write." Girls...
Then there of course is the occasional agent Sands that just
won't stop telling me that he knows how to dance flamenco (wtf?)
but will not do it because it would make him look silly (this
comes from a man who wears shorts with a suit jacket), along with
Captain Jack and his use of Kain's silly "poor William"-joke.
They're all insane, I'm telling you. Stark raving mad.
24th January 2004
feeling: tired
listening to: nothing
It's 11pm, I've had a sauna and I feel way too listless to be
ranting, but this makes me so angry that I have to dump it out of
my head before I explode.
I called the job center yesterday to ask them how exactly I should
go about getting my unemployment benefit, since my five-month
waiting period is over tomorrow. It goes well enough. I'm assured
that I will get paid during my traineeship, which was also a part
why I called. Then they drop the bomb on me. I'm told that I do
not have the right to receive any payment for being unemployed,
other than what I'm getting for working as trainee.
And why? Because I am under 25 and have no professional
qualifications. Sounds a bit weird, but okay. But there's more.
Get this: I don't have the right to get paid because I, with no
valid reason to do so, did not apply to a new school in the fall.
No. Valid. Reason. Bastards. So depression is not a valid
reason to not go to school? Because I damn well was depressed.
And not only was I depressed, but I was so far gone that I damn
near took one too many sleeping pills and spent a week on a
psychiatric ward for it. And that was only a few week prior to
the time when I should've sent in the application. A friggin'
psychiatric ward. If it wasn't so infuriating, I would laugh
my ass off.
22nd January 2004
feeling: ARGH!
listening to: 'Everwood' on TV
Everyone's got their OUATIM dvd but me! UAAAAGH! DX
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feeling: hungry
listening to: RIKKI - Pure Heart
Not much to talk about, really. Am currently downloading FMA and
kicking Google over the head for making the job of finding the
opening and ending themes so hard. Did finally find them, though,
so HA! :P
I should actually be packing up my stuff for the move, but I just
can't be bothered. It's such a tedious job, and I want to avoid
it as long as I can. I know it's going to be twice as bitchy if
I leave it to the last minute, so I guess I should get around to
it sooner or later, seeing as I'm going to be working the week
before the move and all and more than likely will not have much
energy for packing. Ugh. Can't I just hire someone to do this for
me? Anyone interested in being my housemaid for the first week
of February? xP Thankfully I'm going to be able to slip out of the
cleaning job that needs to be done on the new place, since I'll
be working during that week and I can't very well take a few days
off on my first week. So the cleaning job will be done by Mom
and Chiko-Chiko while I'm at work. Go me. xP
And now a quiz because I'm bored:
Complete sincerity: You believe in being
straightforward with others, and you expect the
same from them. People would consider you a
good listener, and one who is calm and mostly
serious.
Which Characteristic From the Samurai Code
Matches You Best? (You may find out your best trait)
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20th January 2004
feeling: D'OH! >.<
listening to: Vanessa-Mae - I Feel Love
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GAARA!! ^^
Even though it was yesterday... ._.
I swear, I'd forget my head if it wasn't screwed on.
18th January 2004
feeling: silly
listening to: 'Princess Mononoke'
I hate forests. Forests suck. Boo at forests.
Yeah. Watch me start crying like a baby the minute the forests
start growing back. I'm such a tree-hugger.
Kodama-tachi are the cutest ever. ^3^
17th January 2004
feeling: sleepy
listening to: 'The Faculty' on TV
Where
will you be?
I have only one thing to say about that: Holy Shit.
OUATIM is out on DVD on the 20th. Guess when it's out in Finland,
or at least so that I can get my hands on it? You're not gonna
believe this. March. Yeah. This is so unfair. ;_;
And while we're on the subject of mr Depp (sorta...), I should
probably get myself the 2-dish collector's edition of Pirates
Of The Caribbean. It has no Finnish subtitles, but who the
heck cares. It's got the blooper reel, and at least it's out. The
Finnish DVD release is in February, and damn me if I'm going to
wait that long.
I want to get Gasaraki. 8 DVDs, 34€ a piece at
FilmiFriikki.
Damn. And I still have a couple of volumes of Visions Of
Escaflowne to buy, too. Man. At least I know where the money
from my traineeship is going. XP
And yes, Kata,
I AM reading you. ;)
14th January 2004
feeling: tired
listening to: 'The Practice' on the TV
As of 2nd February I will be working as a trainee at
a farmyard. The traineeship will last for 4 months. Once I run
the papers through the employment agency tomorrow I will be all
set to go. It will basically be 30 hours/week and includes all
the ups and downs of taking care of animals such of cows, sheep
and the like. YAY is all I have to say about that, even
if it means I will have be at work by 8:30am. X3
Oh, and I've been meaning to ask:
anyone have any experience with RGB cables for, say, their PS2s?
Is it really that much more superior compared to the cable that
comes tagged along with the console? Is it very expensive, and
if so, is it worth it?
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feeling: blah
listening to: Anubis: Zone Of The Enders - Beyond The Bounds
(Mitsuto Suzuki 020203 Mix feat Sana)
Job shop today. Ick ick ick. Should leave in ten minutes. This
sucks.
I had the most kickass dream about Mystique last night. Must
write it down before I forget it, so I can possibly use it as a
base for a story later on. I still haven't written down that
dream about Otsune I had way back when, so should do that as
well.
Ick ick ick ICK.
12th January 2004
feeling: very tired
listening to: X-Men 1.5 extras
We went shopping today with Chiko-Chiko. We got 5 DVDs: From Hell,
Sleepy Hollow, Don Juan DeMarco, X-Men 1.5
and Lethal Weapon 4. Am very happy now, and will be
drooling all over Johnny Depp, Mel Gibson and Mystique when I'm
less tired. Nee hee. ^_^
I dyed my hair black yesterday. Well, black with a red-ish tint.
Takes a little getting used to, but damn, I look good. *struts*
xP
Yes, feel free to shoot me. I'm going to bed now.
10th January 2004
feeling: amused
listening to: Anubis: Zone Of The Enders - Beyond The Bounds
(Mitsuto Suzuki 020203 Mix feat Sana)
It's...it's...it's Sponge Bob! 0_0
Had me laughing 5 minutes straight. Yes, I'm stupid. xD
We should be going to view a couple of appartments today.
Amusingly enough they're both virtually next door to the place
where we used to live sometime before moving here. Not so
amusingly, they're on the other side of the friggin' city. So
we're going to have one helluva job moving when the day comes,
should we take one of the places. Ack. I hate moving. Or rather,
all the packing and lugging that goes with it.
All this is of course considering that Chiko-Chiko can get herself out of bed and
ready to go sometime today. ¬_¬
Ninth Gate is on the TV tonight! Johnny Depp, babeeeh! <3
<3 <3
8th January 2004
feeling: tired
listening to: Jonna Tervomaa - Rakkauden Haudalla
Battle Practice.
A result of a writing practice I did on Tuesday. I'm actually
rather proud of it. The flow of things is still not completely
to my liking, but I hope things get smoother with more practice.
And damn I enjoy writing Otsune. :)
I was thinking about putting it up on FreeHand, but that would sort of require me
to come up with a new layout as well, as currently there's no
space for original stories in there. That, and "Battle Practice"
is little more than a pratice drabble. Decisions, decisions...
While we're one the subject of Otsune, by the way, I had a dream
about her the other night. She stabbed the uncle of her step-sister
(wth, Otsune doesn't have a step-sister...) dead clean through a
3" wooden door - with three jabs. It was so cool. I'll see if can
write it down as short story.
Listening to Into The West and thinking about Witchking
makes me cry. I cheered during the end credits of RotK when
they showed him. ;_;
6th January 2004
feeling: light-headed
listening to: Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers extended edition
I got put on new meds yesterday. They are supposed to help me with
my infernally low energy-levels and the lack of iniatiative that
goes with the illness that is depression. Apparently I'm
suffering from a defiency of noradrenaline in my brain or something
weird like that, and the new meds are supposed to help me with
that. Before I can change them, however, I'll have to gradually
leave out my current meds, which means for two more days I'll be
on 50mg of Zoloft instead of my usual 100mg, and after that I'll
get to take only 25mg for a day. Only then do I get to take the
new ones, that according to my shrink will more than likely make
me feel really nasty for a couple of days. That means headaches,
nausea, loss of appetite, irritation, insomnia and a whole lot of
anxiety. So if I'm behaving like a fuckwit, it's probably nothing
personal.
I just noticed that the Witch-King art print poster I got for
x-mas is actually a rare thing to own. Apparently there were only
2000 ever made. My Witch-King is #32. :)
4rd January 2004
feeling: unwell
listening to: extras on FOTR extended edition
I said somewhere that I wouldn't make any resolutions for the
New Year. It turns out to be not entirely true. There is one
thing I promised myself I would do, though I'm not entirely sure
how well I'm going to be able to stick to it. Anyway, I have
resolved to do at least a little writing on regular basis. My
skills have all but dried out and I have absolutely no bunnies
whatsoever, and it's bugging the shit out of me.
That, and Chiko-Chiko
will absolutely not get off my hair until I write her some
Zaku/Dosu. T_T
So, off to writing then. I think I'll do a battle study for
Otsune today. If she's willing, that is.
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